What do you do if life is intense? One of the things I see and hear many people are doing these days is meditating. What I wonder is: do we really consider what we are doing or trying to achieve when we are meditating? It is important to know.
My first experience with meditation was when I was growing up. Some people around me would meditate – they would disappear into a room, not to be disturbed for the rest of the afternoon. Especially their mentioning that they should not be disturbed is something that made it all quite mysterious to me and also made it seem a very vulnerable thing to do, in the sense that I could not make noise otherwise the meditation would be disturbed.
If I asked what meditation was and how I should do it, I was told that I had to focus on an object in my mind like a pencil and keep focussing on that… I tried but found it hard and to be honest, not very enriching and even a bit boring. I did not feel my body and I sort of felt isolated in my mind and cold – not the most pleasant feeling.
All in all, this meditation did not do it for me.
Years later, at the age of 19, I came across Universal Medicine. Here I was introduced to the Gentle Breath Meditation by Serge Benhayon. First I was a bit hesitant, remembering the meditation from my childhood and not finding it very supportive, but I gave it a go and the experience was completely different.
We were asked to focus on our body and to choose a quality of gentleness in our breath, starting with the tip of the nose and feeling the air flowing in gently and how this feels cool at the tip. The rest of the meditation continued with focussing on both the in and out-breath and after that, your whole body, by relaxing and surrendering all your muscles to the gentle rhythm established by your breath. What I found was a profound awareness of my whole body; I felt all of my body – warm and delicious, as well as very still and precious in quality.
It was the most beautiful feeling I had ever experienced.
It was from this moment that I learned that meditation is not about checking out of our body for a moment of calm and to basically escape from the intensity of the world. The point is, after this ‘outing,’ we always have to come back to our body and feel it, and the intensity of the world it carries once again. In other words, it does not change anything.
True meditation for me is about connecting to a quality of gentleness or tenderness that is innate in our body and surrendering to this quality that is already there. It is about establishing a quality and a connection that brings my mind and body together as one. When I go out of my body into my mind, I feel I lose my innate intelligence, which includes feelings of what to do and what not to do, what to say, and what is safe to do and what is not.
Thus, when I come out of the meditation I am more surrendered in my body and feel equipped to deal with life and its intensities that we cannot stop from being there. For me this is true body intelligence. In that moment I feel the whole of my body like it is a big space and from there it is very clear what I need to do, how I need to do it and when. It is the most beautiful feeling I know – to be one with my body and mind together.
By Lieke Campbell, Belgium