As a child, there were things I just knew.
I knew which family members I wanted to be near to or spend more time with.
When I started school, I knew who I wanted to become friends with. I knew when I met their parents and siblings how the family was and whether I felt comfortable to spend longer periods of time in their home.
I knew that dying was not the end; that we were connected to something far greater than this physical, material world.
I knew that to take drugs was not something I wanted to do, nor was it a wise choice.
I knew when I was full of breast milk/food and to stop drinking/eating any more.
I knew when I walked into a room if there was jealousy towards me, or if someone did not like me. (This included schoolteachers).
These are just a few examples.
I knew these things because of what I was feeling, rather than what I thought in my head. This feeling ‘thing’ was just there. I did not have to try or think about these things. I just knew.
As I grew older, I began to make choices that were going against what I felt.
Looking back, I see that I ignored what I was truly feeling a lot, and this choice to disregard my feelings often ended with very serious consequences.
As an 8 year old, when my friend simply asked to swap bikes, I said ”Yes” when really I knew inside that I wanted to say “No.” Within five minutes of the bike ride beginning I had fallen from the ‘much too big for me’ bike and had a broken ankle, which was put in plaster for the whole eight weeks of the summer holidays.
Did I learn from this? No.
At the age of 13, two more accidents ended with me having broken bones. On both occasions I made decisions that went against what I knew to be true. One of those resulted in a lifetime of continuous pain and discomfort.
After starting to go out with friends at 15 years of age and remaining the sober one who looked after my drunk friends, I eventually gave in and started drinking too, only to end up a very drunken mess enough times to learn the hard way that this was not a wise choice. I already knew this from my inner knowing, but I chose to put myself through damaging and dangerous situations, rather than honour myself and what I knew and felt inside me.
At 16 I met a boy who was interested in me, who was into drugs. I went into the relationship because I wanted to have a boyfriend, to be loved. I knew at a deep level that his drinking a lot of alcohol and the drug taking were not what I wanted to be around, but I overrode what I was FEELING because my mind said, “I want to have a boyfriend, it’s important to be sweet 16 with a boyfriend for the summer.” I said “No” to drugs for five months and then I tried them. I went on to abuse the so-called soft drugs, marijuana and alcohol, on and off, for a further 30 years, all the while, knowing that what I wanted was ‘purity.’
I was living the life of what was considered by onlookers to be that of a ‘Health Fanatic.’ Very conscious of what I ate and exercising, doing yoga, sitting in meditation, living in the outdoors, reading all the right books and into all things ‘a la naturelle.’ And behind that image, I was a drug user. I spent some years without these two drugs of choice. I put this down to the fact that I knew deep within that these choices were not true or supporting me in any way and were in fact very damaging. The drug use was not what I wanted deep within me, but I always ended up going back to it.
I am now 50 and I could go on with countless more examples of not following my deep inner knowing, my sixth sense, my CLAIRSENTIENCE.
Of course, there are also many examples of when I did follow my inner knowing. But what I find interesting is why it is that we ignore what it is we are truly feeling and knowing, even when we have had many previous circumstances that tell us very clearly from the experiences and consequences that followed, that we did not listen to what our inner knowing in our body was telling us.
What is it about the mind that ‘wins out’?
For me, it was about my expression. Being fearful to speak up and say what I knew. What I knew and felt from a place deep within that bypassed the mind. Fearful of the verbal attack that might come at me, or of not being liked, (i.e. If I don’t swap bikes, my friend may not like me anymore or I will have a conflict to deal with). I was giving my power away, rather than expressing what I was feeling.
There was also an underlying sense of abuse in the way I was prepared to put myself into situations that harmed, rather than honoured, myself.
This momentum of choosing abuse did not begin in this life. I knew I had been here before and I knew that these choices were a very old pattern that I could seemingly not so easily change.
I used to often ask myself the questions, “Why did I become so angry? Why did I become a drug user?” It did not make sense to me, because neither my family nor the role models around me made such choices.
There were countless situations where, even though I knew deeply that my choices were not what I wanted from a feeling within me and a knowing that came from something much bigger than me, I still continued to ignore, override, dull myself with drugs and food and music. I continued to play dumb and not speak up.
The choice to continue denying what I knew about the world of energy then became more obvious because there was an even deeper sadness about the choices. This explained the anger, as anger is just a form of suppressed and undealt with sadness.
Ignoring my ‘inner knowing’ has had consequences for me to feel that have been very difficult to bear and at times have been so uncomfortable that finally, they brought me to where I am today.
I am learning to express and speak up and follow what I feel to be true for me.
I have had to climb over a huge mountain to get to this place.
I have let go of so much, on so many levels, that at times I have felt such unrest that I wondered if harmony would ever be restored in my body and my life. However, what I am now feeling is the true energetic freedom that comes from being dead honest with what I am feeling and making decisions from that place. The feeling I now have and live within my body just does not compare to living with the anxiousness that comes with living life so that it looks like the picture or ideal I had in my head about how it should be.
I have only been able to come back to living from my knowing because I started to love myself – to really love myself, deeply. This is a work in progress, and I practise this every day, by continually making choices that are loving. This is what has made the difference.
So all the while I was reading the right books and living in a way that looked like I loved myself by exercising and eating well and doing self help courses, being nice etc., however on a truly deep level, I was not loving myself at all as I was using drugs and giving my power away and not honouring my CLAIRSENTIENCE – what I knew and felt inside, in my body: the truth that is the one truth for ALL, my connection to God, the universal laws that we are ALL unavoidably connected to.
I have learnt that it is not what I am interested in and reading about and the classes I am attending that bring change, but it is in the Way I Live and the quality I choose in everything I do every day that has supported me to listen to my CLAIRSENTIENCE. Expressing again from this knowing has brought true and sustainable change into my life, without following rules and regulations, but from listening to what I always have known, listening to the Divine wisdom of my heart that was there all along, just waiting for me to re-connect to it.
I have been inspired to live what I already knew by the presentations and teaching of The Ancient Wisdom presented by Serge Benhayon from Universal Medicine.
By Mary-Lou Reed, Arnhem, The Netherlands
Further Reading:
Seeing Is Believing…Or Is It?
Mental Awareness V Conscious Awareness
The Gift of Clairsentience: Reclaiming My Ability To Feel Energy
The Truth about Serge Benhayon 
Isn’t it amazing how we ignore what feels true or right within us. Why do we do this? Why do billions of people do something that goes against this inner grain, this inner knowing thats within all of us.
If we really look at this, from a baby we feel, we know, and if only we are nurtured to not lose this, then our lives will be so much different. Then we wouldn’t be referring to stimulants, whether smoking, alcohol, food etc.
But what I love is the fact that this inner knowing never leaves us, it is a matter of eventually making that choice to trust and honouring what we feel. Once we have this in our day to day life, its amazing how we return to a language thats innately within us all. A working progress but worth every moment…
We all have this inner knowing, what do we do with this, ‘I chose to put myself through damaging and dangerous situations, rather than honour myself and what I knew and felt inside me.’
Serge Benhayon presents the truth of the Ageless Wisdom that our only choice is: to which energy do we align?
Mary-Lou, I love what you have shared in so many parts here in this blog. We get so good at ignoring this inner knowing even when we hear so loudly what it is that is truly needed. We hold an arrogance thinking that we know better than this inner knowing or that perhaps we can in some way prove differently. And yet this inner knowing prevails, never stops and never gives up on us. It is only us who can turn away from it and then return humbly to reclaim our knowing.
Thank goodness this is the case, ‘this inner knowing prevails, never stops and never gives up on us.’
And the reason I ignored this inner knowing was because I was frowned upon, I was shut down many a times, but it also irked people as it would bring things up for them too. All part of the game of life, that keeps us in that perpetuating cycle. But there is no denying that it will always be there, waiting for one day for us to live from their than the human mind…
That inner knowing is Gold. It is our connection to God, the Gold within, the God within. This is the part of us to invest in and nourish and develop a relationship with, for the returns of love currency are hundred fold and there to be shared all around.
Clairsentience is that inner knowing, the bridge to our intelligence, the intelligence of the Soul that is connected to the Universe. A knowing that is available to us all.
It is at our expense and peril if we ignore this inner knowing, ‘ I see that I ignored what I was truly feeling a lot, and this choice to disregard my feelings often ended with very serious consequences.’
Our intuition is a divine blessing and should always be understood for the connection to the heavens it provides and thus be open to live with the appreciation of who we all are.
I have got so many examples now in life where what is felt is the more loving and true choice over what the mind wants and needs life to be. And yet, I find myself following those wants and needs and forming life as such time and time again. There’s more grandness and joy that comes with listening to the body. So much that the mind cannot take it all in, nor accept it and moreso, can’t control it.
When we ignore what we know to be true there are going to be serious consequences because we are then going against the universe and there are always repercussions when doing this as we are going against its harmony and rhythm. If we were honest enough with ourselves we would see that illness and disease is the consequences of going against what we know to be true. But in general we are not ready for such home truths.
Great point Mary, ‘ If we were honest enough with ourselves we would see that illness and disease is the consequences of going against what we know to be true.’
Claiming myself back by learning to love myself again has changed my life completely. I had no idea I was so abusive and hard on myself until I started to attend the workshops of Universal Medicine changing the way I live and the quality of my livingness has been a huge part of reclaiming myself as someone worth loving. Learning to love myself is huge as it takes away the neediness of wanting others to love me, or seeking recognition and acceptance from others because I could not give this to myself. I am re learning the power of true love is untouchable.
Thank you Mary-Lou, I really enjoyed reading this. “I was giving my power away, rather than expressing what I was feeling.” I could relate to much of what you gave shared, and how we disconnect to our true selves, our true source of power, when we make decisions that dishonour how we feel. In addition what I could feel is how much change we can actually offer when we are honest and share our truth.
We crave security and we forsake our clairsentience in an endeavour to achieve/maintain security only to find that choice to be an illusion and in the process we loose confidence in our inner-knowing, our clairsentience. Regaining that trust and confidence is one of the greatest healings there is.
Humanity is in such a state of disconnection from this natural awareness, that it would seem impossible to return… And yet by simply moving to observing and not just to ‘seeing’, we can start to reconnect, and if we choose to continue this reconnection this vital natural sense returns to us.
It seems too simple to be true, but it is.
One just needs to sit with a child and feel this pouring out of their mouths and faces. There is no holding back their innate wisdom to express what they feel with no hidden agendas.
Children show us what is possible, ‘I am learning to express and speak up and follow what I feel to be true for me.’
Giving permission to ourselves to express what wee feel inside breaks this ingrained way of being ‘good’ and nice. Despite it implies a disregarding of what we know inside is true for us it is socially accepted, seen as the norm of how we should behave. It seems we have created a way of being that is completely against who we really are when in truth we came in to life being very clear and very all knowing of what’s true and what’s not.
Thanks Universal Medicine for showing us that our Natural Inner Knowing matters, regardless if it is liked, accepted by others or not.
A disregarding of ourselves, ‘I was giving my power away, rather than expressing what I was feeling.’
I am finding more and more how detrimental it is not to express ourselves exactly when and how we feel to.
Well said Fumiyo, any expression held back becomes a poison that then affects the next round of expression and so forth. The greatest gift to self and others is indeed full and truthful expression. I say this as words and yet know this is not easy to live, for knowledge is one thing whilst wisdom is the true power of living what one speaks – something I am learning humbly to do.
“The true energetic freedom that comes from being dead honest with what I am feeling and making decisions from that place.” It is one of the greatest gifts we can give our selves is becoming ‘dead honest’ about our lives. We sugarcoat our lives so much as to not get real about how we are living and it really does us no good. Honesty is the best policy. And that can be hard when you have been living a comfortable lie for some time.
We do know so much that is brushed aside and not honoured. As a child I had a very strong feeling that the education in the form of the day was not for me. Education crushes our innate ability to know, to wonder and to be amazed by the magic and beauty of God. Instead we are forced …yes forced to learn by rote and to regurgitate information from books that someone else has written in such a way that that the subject is as dry as sand. Is it any wonder that as children we give up at school because the way we are taught goes against every sense in our bodies, in order to survive we feel we have to switch off or dull ourselves down.
As children we are not taught to honour our feelings of what we know to be true, many children find that their sense of knowing is not welcome either at home or at school so we shut down what we instinctively know. To me it’s like putting on a straight-jacket we are asked to conform to the rules of society so that by the time we reach adulthood we have closed down and become zombies. When I stop to feel this in my body it’s quite horrifying what we actually do to ourselves.
It is quite horrifying what we do to ourselves, ‘There was also an underlying sense of abuse in the way I was prepared to put myself into situations that harmed, rather than honoured, myself.’
Thank you Mary-Lou. It’s a crazy paradox that we think ourselves to be very clever these days but dismiss this inner voice in so many ways. We are all knowing ~ but only when we let our feeling senses be.
Funnily enough today it became very obvious that I would feel something and then not act on it, then complication arose afterwards and I could clearly feel how I created that. To me it is very much avoidance of simplicity, being in my power and wanting identification that made me not just go with what I felt but with the excuses in my head.
Overriding what we know and doing the opposite to please others or to gain recognition is a killer. How many of us go against what we feel and do not speak up; eventually this practice erodes away at us until we no longer know who we are.
What an awesome gift we have in clairsentience and when we use it we simply cannot go astray.
Our clairsentience is a great gift that we all naturally have, the less we override it the more we start to realise that it has great value and the less distracted we are, and the more able we are at being connected to our body the more we value our clairsentience.
Clairsentience is an innate ability we are born with, what do we do with that is then our choice, ‘It is in the Way I Live and the quality I choose in everything I do every day that has supported me to listen to my CLAIRSENTIENCE. ‘
The more I find i honour what I know to be true and stay with it the more I get confirmed with what I have felt. We are all super aware beings just playing lesser thinking what we see and hear is all that can be possible when we are far more than purely physical. We are Gods playing lesser, pretending we can’t feel or know when we do all along.
“what I am now feeling is the true energetic freedom” a beautiful claiming to live who you naturally are.
It sure is Mary and there is no greater gift we can give ourselves, or anyone else for that matter.
Mary-Lou, I could feel your absolute preciousness from a child to an adult reading this today. Thank you.
It is great that Mary-Lou is returning to the love that she is, ‘I have only been able to come back to living from my knowing because I started to love myself – to really love myself, deeply. ‘
When we start fighting what we feel, we end up feeling different things regarding us that do not reflect the truth of what is there to be felt.
it doesn’t seem like rocket science – so why do we take so long to start truly honouring the communication of our bodies, even when the messages have been breaking through loud and clear. The rewards of supporting our body is the access to greater clarity, wisdom and understanding, as well as much greater ability to deal with all situations that come our way. So it is worth at least giving it a go to see!
Imagine not having our inner knowing overridden, but rather supported and nurtured
How often do we forgo our inner knowing, our absolute and all-knowing compass? And when we do, how often do we kick ourselves in the back side for it? – I can say from my life, many, many times have I done that.
I often hear people complain that they were never given a road map on how to be in life. The truth however is that we have been given the gift of clairsentience which supports us to know exactly what is going on and how to deal with it. All that is required is that we listen to our body.
I am really seeing the places I still over-ride my feelings by using my mind to make decisions that are against what I have felt. It all happens in an instant but the outplay from that choice can be incredibly harming.
This alone shows how we need to change education and change this to True Education in supporting children to honour what they already know and what they feel rather than trying to teach what they ‘should’ know which takes them away from this innate and natural clairsentience.
It’s amazing how we can fool ourselves that we are caring for and loving ourselves when in truth we are just going through the motions. It is impossible to take drugs and love ourselves at the same time…unless of course it is the emotional kind of love we are talking about, a love that panders to our wants and needs however harmful and abusing they might be to our body mind and spirit.
True Mary-Lou we can come from knowledge but when we don’t live what we feel is true and build this quality in our day to day life, we will never get it and it will be an endless trap of trying to find more knowledge to satisfy our mind. Our body is full of wisdom and when we put this first before anything else in life our quality will determine what is there for us, living from inside out and not the usual other way around.
Our clairsentience needs to be honoured and accepted as very ‘normal’ when we are young, somewhere along the way we separate from this inner wisdom and then we lose this connection to greater awareness and understanding that supports us through life.
This was well needed for me to read today. This line – “The drug use was not what I wanted deep within me, but I always ended up going back to it.” – was a corker for me. No longer drugs for me but over eating, being hard on myself is something I keep going back to. I got from this today to deepen the love for myself, which I will work on, thank you.
I love your honesty Mary-Lou in which you share how you portrayed yourself as a health fanatic all the while ironically in the background you were abusing your body with drugs. I have to say it’s really quite fascinating how our mind works to justify the contradictory choices we make.
The only reason why we do not live the simplicity we had as children is because as adults we do not value our clairsentience.
I think it is interesting to consider why we may ignore or override what our sixth sense is telling us, that sense we get to not do something or to do something that comes from deep inside without any justification…
This is such a perfect blog to explain the inner knowing we all have called clairsentience. I am sure everyone could relate to the knowing you had as a child and that the pull to be liked by our friends and family. Most of us have experiences from early on that lead us to believe that by not expressing what you actually feel, you will be more liked. All the while our like (love) for ourselves is being eroded by the constant dismissal of what we feel to be true.
All we really need is to have this doorway, this window, opened so that we can be reminded of what is innate within us… And what is so natural… But then we have to go through the doorway.
Clairsentience is something that is often presented as being wacky or only for ‘special’ people rather than the totally normal, natural thing that it is for all of us in my experience. I think blogs like this are great as they help us to recognise how much we are sensing energy all the time just that we may be dismissing what we’re picking up on, but that can change and we can re-develop our awareness of it.
The inner wisdom is such that it knows the future where as our mind will only know for certain when it is happening or when it is in the past.
When we are thought form young to focus on our mind and dismiss what we feel, or worse that what we feel is wrong, then it is no wonder that we let go of this innate wisdom and are always looking for a reasoning, explanation or mental knowing as a confirmation before we dare to act on what we feel.
Like bats in the night we are to feel our way through life relying on what we know the heart feels, over what the eyes and mind tell us is true. Our clairsentience is our radar. Without it we are lost in the darkness with nothing to guide us safely home.
An excellent metaphor… If you have been in a colony of bats flying it’s uncanny how none of them hit you… They know exactly what to do… It is their nature, and so clairsentience is ours.
Liane these are beautiful words… like the words of an oracle speaking truth and offering that which can be: “Like bats in the night we are to feel our way through life relying on what we know the heart feels, over what the eyes and mind tell us is true. Our clairsentience is our radar. Without it we are lost in the darkness with nothing to guide us safely home.”
I can feel what a huge impact the accidents you had as a child and teenager impacted your body when I read your description of it. Our bodies have to wear the consequences of our choices and it can simetimes be an even bigger ouch to realise we knew that that choice would hurt us all along.
Love the way you have shared so openly, powerfully and sweetly here Mary-Lou.
“I have only been able to come back to living from my knowing because I started to love myself – to really love myself, deeply. This is a work in progress, and I practise this every day, by continually making choices that are loving. This is what has made the difference.” Beautifully said Mary-Lou. I feel that I too am regaining my knowing little by little as I accept and appreciate all of me and love and cherish myself.
I can remember a particular teacher not liking me and a teacher that did like me. I also remember at the time asking myself ‘how come? Why was one teacher very obviously not liking me and the other very obviously liking me?’ I put it down to at the time that the teacher that liked me knew my parents and the teacher that didn’t like me didn’t know my mum and dad!! How we can come up with mental explanations to avoid seeing what is really going on. On reflection the teacher that didn’t like me was jealous, fact and my clairsentience knew it but I didn’t want to see it especially the reflection of jealousy in a woman because it would bring hurts up from within to address and heal.
We honour our innate clairsentience by living what we know to be true and not simply by thinking we know something is true because we are told it is so. Every child knows how to do this. Most adults have drifted from it.
My body’s messages get louder and stronger the more I connect and honour my true feelings. ‘Expression is Everything’ (Serge Benhayon) – following the impulses of the body and expressing everything that offers.
I love the instant response our body gives when we start honoring it. It doesn’t matter at what age we begin, the moment we treat the body with love and respect it simply appreciates that so much and it will communicate to us even louder what it needs.
We have sat exams in overriding, we have certificates in blocking out and doctorates in ignoring what we feel. So it only makes sense, that it takes time and understanding to let go of these ways of being. The more we accept how they have seriously hurt us, the more we will say ‘no more for me’. Thank you Mary-Lou Reed.
We get up, we talk, we move about, we set up shop, all with ease but conveniently seem to forget about connection. I’ve been to countless workshops where I’ve seen the power of tuning in to our body – yet I often do not. What your words Mary-Lou help me see is that I don’t like to feel the full extent of what I sense – and so prefer to live life with half my senses. The trouble is as you show turning off doesn’t really work – we just get smashed. So it seems to me the only true way forward is to cultivate our awareness and cherish it instead of blocking out.
When you describe how you just knew things as a child I get a sense of the real simplicity that was there – just observing the sense or knowing and not judging others or yourself by it but acting on what you knew and that was that.
We do know what is true for us, we can always feel it, but do we choose to numb ourselves or feel the truth?
We do not choose what to feel, we only choose whether to feel or not.
“I knew these things because of what I was feeling, rather than what I thought in my head. This feeling ‘thing’ was just there. I did not have to try or think about these things. I just knew.” I love this. So. when we ‘know’ so much it is interesting to observe how the world doesn’t tolerate this knowing, so encourages us all to migrate into our head. Then rational thought becomes the accepted viewpoint – a great way to shut down a society that could become much more loving, truthful and liberated if allowed to come from the heart.
Why do we override what deep inside we know is true, why do we abuse our bodies so, ‘why it is that we ignore what it is we are truly feeling and knowing, even when we have had many previous circumstances that tell us very clearly from the experiences and consequences that followed, that we did not listen to what our inner knowing in our body was telling us’?
When most of us look at our childhood in contrast to our adult life, it seems like we used to have access to clairsentience and we have lost it. Yet amazing that that our clairsentience has never ever left us. All we have to do is to start honouring ourselves far more than we have been in all sorts of areas, i.e. stop dismissing and drowning out our inner knowing.
In the lack of self-acceptance within our foundation, we are likely to look for and focus on small things and create an issue when there are no issues, giving power to that which is not from truth – the shenanigans of the spirit.
What is extraordinary is that we, at such an early age, can override such a clear and true voice… thank God our particles belong to God and just want to align!
What you share here is profound in that even if the outside is shiny and new, the inside can know it is not living in honour of the amazing being we are. This creates an anxiety that creates a tension that is lived in every moment. This is a huge drain on our energy resources. I know for my part, when I stopped being fake and chose to live transparently – or as transparently as I knew how the tension eased so much! I found I was hiding from myself, not anyone else!! Go figure!
I especially love feeling that we are connected to something bigger than ourselves and the support is always there if we choose to support ourselves in life.
What you have shared here so honestly Mary-Lou is that our clairsentience is an expression we can no longer hold back any longer, that over time we begin to feel just how wonderful it is to feel this truth and express from this wisdom in our daily lives. Simply awesome thank you.
Thank you for your honesty Mary-Lou. Your experience is the same of many people (if not most of us in different scale) who have succumbed to the external pressures, supressing our inner truth. Your blog clearly exposes your journey through that and it’s a support for all of us to reflect about ours. Honesty is always the first step to initiate a new beginning.
This is such a great example of what happens when we do not speak up, and end up in situations we knew would be detrimental to our well-being.
It hurts a lot to realise how much we have compromised ourselves over the years by overriding what we knew to be true. The good thing is, its never to late to make a fresh start.
I loved what you have shared Mary-Lou with so much honesty, I have overridden what I had felt for a very long time, when I was young I was told feelings could not be trusted that rationalising going into the head was the way to sort life out, so what I was feeling was given very little consideration. Now in my seventies I am learning to honour what I am feeling and trust it, the next step is slowly evolving and that is speaking up, not holding back for fear of reaction but saying how it truly is feeling for me.
Its not what is going on on the outside thats important its our inner relationship first, then this supports all of the outside. Acknowledging and then honouring what we feel, no matter what we may think is of utmost importance.
It is certainly confidence boosting to understand that we are knowing of everything in each moment and fully equipped to respond to life. Being present and honouring our inner-knowing is key.
It is a killer that one – the fear of not being liked, or causing some disharmony. I know it because it still gets me from time to time when I don’t speak my truth about a situation because someone might get upset!
It’s the observation and the appreciation of our lessons learned from our experiences that inevitably help us to take new steps to build consistency or a new framework if you will of trusting our inner knowing. We then begin moving and expressing from this knowing because it is in these movements we find the return back to our purpose and what you have shared here Mary-Lou is a beautiful example of that, deeply inspiring thank you.
As I child I knew exactly what I would let fly and what I wouldn’t. I know the same now but less often express it so.
There have been many times in my life from very young when I can remember “Being fearful to speak up and say what I knew” in case I was laughed at, ridiculed or told that I was imagining things. I know that I am not the only person who experienced this fear and then made the choice to shut down their expression, as I did mine. How different our lives would have been if we had been surrounded by people who were connected to their clairsentience and were therefore able to support us to stay connected to ours and to our true expression.
The world of non-verbal communication is endlessly fascinating. The more I simply observe, the more this unspoken language of light and energy comes alive.
Awesome sharing, Mary-Lou, I can so relate to so much of what you have chosen to put your body through. It is quite extraordinary to what extend we can let our mind ignore and override what the body is telling us. I have done that countless of times as well, in many areas of my life, not to mention with relationships. It comes to a point, though, when we cannot ignore our bodies anymore, and taking care of ourselves becomes much more important than pleasing the world and everyone around us. To stay true to ourselves is the greatest gift we give ourselves and others.
As everybody has an inner knowing everybody knows moments where the body exactly says what to do etc. When everybody would take this to heart our lives, society and world would look differently.
Knowing that there is a constant energetic interplay in life allows for a greater understanding and acceptance for what occurs.
This is true – when we realise there is always far more going on in every moment than what meets the eye, it opens us up to greater understanding and acceptance.
When the doorway to clairsentience is opened to us, and it starts to become a part of our lives, it becomes so natural that life without this awareness would be literally unthinkable.
“it is not what I am interested in and reading about and the classes I am attending that bring change, but it is in the Way I Live” Love this Mary-Lou. And it’s not about our education or intelligence, but what we do our experiences and lessons learnt!
Having been working with Universal Medicine for 10 years now, giving myself permission to value my clairsentience, I reflect back on my childhood and the totally natural way I was with this – feeling life in full. It feels so mad when I then consider the multitude of ways that we educate our children away from this innate wisdom and naturally intelligent relationship with life.
Thank you Mary Lou for sharing.
I had a different childhood – I knew I felt bad but I didn’t know why. I then tried to stop feeling bad in many different ways.
I have noticed that most times when I am annoyed with myself it is because I didn’t go with what I felt, and subsequently something would happen, that wouldn’t have needed to had I appreciated and followed what I knew. Our clairsentience is very present and real, refining my ability to ‘go with it’ is the greatest support that I have, for it is always with me.
So true Leigh, we know and the frustration is that we didn’t champion ourselves but put our own knowing behind an expectation or someone else’s opinion.
It’s interesting that we have an inner rebel that likes to go against all the things that we innately know. It’s almost like it’s the cool thing to do. But ultimately it’s not cool at all, as we just get more and more lost.
To claim things that we know from our innermost is to live from authority.
Spot on Jenny, I love what you have shared.
I love reading the layers of communication taking place all around me and within. They are non-stop.
Me too. I love ‘reading between the lines’ and hearing all that is not being said but is really wanting to be heard.
Imagine if we were all sensitive enough to raise our children , from now on, with their clairsentience intact …. What a precious commodity we would be nurturing.
‘I was giving my power away, rather than expressing what I was feeling’. Yes, one of my old habits also. But I can no longer give my power away, I am so done with that old habit. I am working on being present in my body and being gentle with my movements, and just staying steady and connected with my body. Which is a constant work in progress.
Claiming back, remembering, taking responsibility for the fact that I can read situations simply and instantly is my commitment and focus right now. Fluffy indecision, sitting on the fence and ‘I’m not sure…’ feels indulgent these days.
I find that indecision can mean that now is not the time to make this decision or I am asking the wrong question or there could be yet another reason but indecision is simply a sign there is more to understand. Does indecision exist when we are connected to our heart?
It’s great what you have shared here, Mary-Lou, about “the true energetic freedom that comes from being dead honest”. Absolute honesty helps me to work through any challenges, because I go back to the basics of what I am feeling inside, and things tend to work out from there.
Our clairsentience is a gift from heaven, it is one of our senses that is lease talked about in our current society and lease acknowledged, why is this? Is it because when we connect and use our clairsentience it is very difficult to give our power away, therefore we would realise how powerful we all really are.
I can feel throughout my life just how much I have always had clairsentience, unfortunately I just stopped listening to it and trusting in myself that I indeed had the wisdom and inner knowing to always steer me in the right direction in life.
When I look back and see how I have over rode myself I actually am devastated because I didn’t honour what I felt. Today I am working on making this a priority.
Yes, what greater priority is there than connecting to our all-knowing wisdom and living from the authority of that?
We felt truth as children but when it was not validated we began to doubt and override our natural innate knowing and felt sense.
This confirms how much we already know but we often beat ourselves up when we choose to override our inner knowing. If we choose to learn from our past choices we get to build on our awareness and expand, but if we get stuck on beating ourselves up, our learning opportunities gets narrowed and can potentially lead to more destructive choices.
If we reflect honestly on our lives, I am sure many of us will know of moments when we have overridden what feels true for us and had some thing occur that hurts, is disruptive and does not feel harmonious, this in fact often happens every day. Whether we ignore how we or someone feels, listen to the words but do not feel the intention. We all have wisdom in spades if we are willing to be honest about how we feel.
I am learning that we do a lot to dull our awareness, it is as if as children we do not get seen or recognised for being aware and so we begin to override it…I can find lots of ways that I have overridden what I feel and it was making me grumpy, tired, lacking in confidence, reliant on emotions etc, get back in touch with feeling how you feel and it opens up the world and the ways of dulling are not used. It is simple, but it feels amazing to know that when we honour what we feel, we reconnect, become revitalised and so much more confident.
I used to be called confident by people, which I knew was not true because I had access to how I felt inside. Since working with Universal Medicine I have built a relationship with myself that is developing a quiet confidence that confirms my place and value in life and gives me a sense of great purpose and inspiration in my days.
“As a child, there were things I just knew.” the true value of this is something not appreciated and held up in life and so we choose to ignore it by default but the truth is it is always there we just have to live in away that honours this and all we are and it magnifies again before our very eyes.
I can remember the difficulty I had learning to smoke cigarettes but I was determined to like it because my boyfriend at the time did, and then I had to get used to the taste of alcohol which I really didn’t like at first. Then addiction set in and I smoked for ten years and it took several attempts over a year to stop. The alcohol consumption continued as a social prop for the next 30 years, and when I eventually stopped that too, my body gave a huge sigh of relief! We don’t see it as self-abuse, but it is.
Yes Carmel, I can remember doing the same with cigarettes and alcohol. My dad introduced me to alcohol when I was about 14 with Babycham as it was sweet and fizzy. I loved it, and it was downhill from there until about 10 years ago when I felt the reality of how it was in body when I drank. And it was the same with coffee. My mother used to give me coffee made with milk and lots of sugar to make it ‘taste nice’. It took a while to grow to like it which I never really did, but I became addicted to the image and habit of all three. A total override of what my body was telling me, and all for the sake of fitting in. Self abuse indeed.
Most people have many memories of their childhood, often we fondly reminisce about the tenderness and innocence of the perception and at times we recall a disturbing experience that we would rather forget. Either way these memories confirm that as a child we had an access to a greater openness and ability to connect to everything around us.
I too like most people have had my own share of memories and throughout my life and I have heard many other people’s stories too. Curious that until I heard Serge Benhayon talk about on the subject, it had not even occurred to me to ask how come we all start off with such an ability and how come we no longer seem to have it by the time we are adults.
I notice alot in conversation that absence of listening, like really listening to what another is saying. Reading this blog the penny dropped how this is a reflection of how we ignore listening to ourselves deeply.
We have become very proficient at attacking our own awareness for if were to embrace it in full we would have to deal with the backlash of the ill choices we have made and take responsibility in order to live with the joy that we deserve in our bodies from expressing from our soul.
Returning to our clairsentience after decades away like you Mary-Lou feels like coming home, back to knowing and honouring our truth inside us. And you are correct, it does start with the choice of loving ourselves, really deeply, knowing what is right and true.
This natural inner knowing guides us constantly if we allow it.And often it is about small choices like how I walk or how I move or behave.
We feel absolutely everything and then filter out what we don’t want to know or be confronted with.
Reclaiming and honouring our inner knowing is so beautiful and so treasuring of who we are and builds a deeper love and connection inside us all, allowing simplicity and our natural grace to be lived.
On some level I find it amazing how much we know, whether as adults or children, how much we know what are useful and hurtful choices in our life. Even when we make harmful choices in many cases we actually consciously know what we are doing.
I loved reading your blog Mary-Lou and what really struck me this morning were these very wise words;
“I have only been able to come back to living from my knowing because I started to love myself – to really love myself, deeply”.
Beautifuly descripted Shirley. For me it has impulsed a deepening Level of self love
It doesn’t matter how lost we may think we are, the moment we return to the truth of our heart, everything is known in an instant.
I quite often have a feeling in advance of something I have chosen to do that it is not the right choice for one reason or another – I can feel the responsibility which comes in acknowledging this awareness.
Yes, we know what to do quite often without necessarily knowing why. Sometimes we realise later on, sometimes we don’t know.
‘I have only been able to come back to living from my knowing because I started to love myself – to really love myself, deeply.’ This is so lovely to read, so confirming of the choice to love our-self brings and a simple one to make once we drop all the care for what is insignificant compared to the love we are and can express. I shut down my expression and am only now learning to love it and the joy and connection with others that is there when I don’t hold back.
To Truly listen to and honour our inner knowing is our greatest gift in the world.”I have been inspired to live what I already knew by the presentations and teaching of The Ancient Wisdom presented by Serge Benhayon from Universal Medicine.” Beautiful
When we make choices that go against what we are feeling to be true, we actually know exactly what we are doing although we may be ignorant to the fact and even convinced to not know better. That raises the question why we go against what we know to be true, why go against ourselves? There must be something in for us otherwise we wouldn´t do it thus, obviously we give more value to such benefit than to ourselves. Honouring one´s clairsentience goes with honouring and valuing oneself.
It’s amazing how we absolutely know what is true. If we stop to actually listen to our clairsentience we have a way of allowing life to unfold without even having to think. It is purely joyful to live in this way.
“My Natural Inner Knowing – My Clairsentience” – is the greatest gift and education for us to have for the awareness we gain about everything in life including our true selves. It is the way out; the antidote to ills, the salvation of us all as a race of beings back towards brotherhood.. the reality that it/this quality is blocked, dis-encouraged, overridden, passed-off from young and throughout during education, is total indictment.
This is a key point that starts the process of self-love…”it is in the Way I Live and the quality I choose in everything I do every day that has supported me to listen to my CLAIRSENTIENCE…”
We can appear to have it all going on, to be on a path of health and consciousness but how is our body? How do we sleep? How do we feel in the privacy of our own home? Or better still, our own head?
I think it’s beautiful honesty to discover the lie you were living.
I was a recreational drug user for most of my life, I knew it felt wrong even though everyone around me was fine with their choice, I battled with my inner knowing. What Universal Medicine offers is a chance to get back in touch with what we all naturally have inside of us and that is our Clairsentience and with this sixth sense in action, we need not have the battle – for we have ourselves in full.
“I have learnt that it is not what I am interested in and reading about and the classes I am attending that bring change, but it is in the Way I Live and the quality I choose in everything I do every day that has supported me to listen to my CLAIRSENTIENCE.” Yes Mary-Lou, how we live in relation to our clairsentience is key to how we are with everything that we do and everyone that we are with, no matter what it is or who they are.
Mary-Lou, this is beautiful and really helpful; ‘I have only been able to come back to living from my knowing because I started to love myself – to really love myself, deeply. This is a work in progress, and I practise this every day, by continually making choices that are loving.’
What is it about us that we have a deep understanding of what is happening or going to happen and we override these inner knowings, and yes I feel that I am also very much a work in progress? So why not take the next step and commit fully to the Soul? All I can come up with is that maybe there has been too many lives spent, which were totally lost? Maybe more focus or living with a deeper awareness of the deep Love that comes from the Soul and then to appreciate this as much as possible?
In the past I was relying to my body in a way that I knew it would function no matter how my behaviourism looked like. This went on until my body was very depleted. only when my body showed to me no more of this, otherwise it would stop obeying me, I started to understand that my body is a vehicle and my best friend which deserves the most loving treatment I can give to it.
“As a child, there were things I just knew” – yes, i distinctly remember those days and yet i also know too when that feeling of knowing and being totally connected with myself dropped off or dropped away. Where the beautiful silent sound of self-connection, pondering, presence, became noisy with distraction to deafen and where i would make choices not being able to properly hear. Nonsensical really when you think about it. Coming back to feeling, to clairsentience and continually working on deepening this is the boldest move because of what you re-feel about yourself, the world, other people, though it is the clearest move to make for the clarity and awareness you gain.
Recently I found out that my body was depleted in several areas. I have been finding it immensely supportive to take care of it in all ways, sleep, food ( including supplements when necessary) the type of gentle movements it needs at the time, and not least the care and responsibility with which I relate to myself, people and life. Because if any of them is off, my body is playing catch up. The more everything falls into place the easier it is for me to remain clear, connected and appreciate my inner awareness.
The subtleties of when we feel things in people’s looks, people’s comments and actions towards us reveals much about the actual energetic state of what is going on. When we are young our energetic awareness is very strong, we know when someone is lying, we know when someone doesn’t like us and this is a. Dry impactful experience – and through dulling and reducing this sensitivity we have taken in a way of going through life that is always saying no to awareness and yes to numbing, distractions and pursuits that are away from this constant knowing.
True and sustained change is not achieved by the one miracle course or book. Consistency and steadiness comes from a commitment to a way of life that is practical, sustainable and in line with the natural laws of the bigger plan we are all part of.
It is so natural to trust what we feel when we are young as we know the world of energy. What happens and why is it that as we get older we so easily let go of our inner knowing that it is about energy first?
It is deeply healing to confirm what we once knew as children how we knew the world by feel, and how we knew what felt true and what didn’t. It is sad that the world is so far from the truth we feel that we start to negate our feelings rather than have to deal with the extent of the lies.
Sometimes it can seem like it takes ages or a while at least, for us to know what’s really true. But what I am starting to see is that we actually ‘get it’ right away, but have just developed this multi-layered way of hiding it away. We are like jackpot winners who have stuffed the ticket away down the back of the couch then spend our days mouching about, complaining of how poor we are. Your words Mary-Lou inspire me to embrace a new honesty with myself and what I truly know inside.
I find that if we use substantial amounts of drugs for decades that that leaves traces which can take a number of years to eliminate. During that time things may feel harder than they need to be but it is a limited time.
Re-learning how to listen to our bodies is invaluable as otherwise we have to rely on outside information to know what is ‘good’ for us, but when we live in connection all the wisdom is there available for us at our finger tips.
Judith this is absolutely true, when we live in connection all the wisdom is there and available for us at our finger tips.
As children we knew life through feeling life an intelligence that we sadly separated from.
The joy is that this ability never goes away. We just need to start paying attention and honouring what we feel instead of drowning it out with our so polished and so clever dismissals.
A habit of a lifetime may not disappear in one stroke, but well worth making a start, even if it is just one step at a time.
Mary-Lou I agree with you as children we do know naturally it’s an innate feeling we are all born with. I squashed this innate knowing in order to enjoin society to be accepted to not stand out. Now reconnecting back to my clairsentience it is the most wonderful gift I have bestowed upon myself to give myself permission to read what is going on in any situation I cannot be fooled any more no one can take advantage of me this is hugely powerful.
Expressing what we are feeling brings us even more clarity.
Simplicity of expression creates a true foundation and brings us more clarity.
It is quite incredible to account for every instance in which we have over-riden our deep inner-knowing be that with another, in any instance or at any time – it is deeply confirming that we forever know truth and what is false, yet deliberately negate such truth if we do not honour our knowing.
As a young child we are all knowing and in connection to the simplicity and magic that life is, this is something that most of us loose as we grow up but can also be reignited at any stage of our lives with the willingness to heal and our connection to soul.
That all-feeling time can be short. Mine ended quite early and I didn’t enjoy the experience.
Sometimes we react to how fast we actually know things, when we feel things it is an instant knowing. And this reveals how we have two qualities of life one which is fire – our true essence and one of prana.
I think there is a phrase that says something like hindsight is a beautiful thing. But when it comes to hindsight, it stings as we always had foresight, only we often choose to ignore it.
I consider how much I feel and how important it is for a child to be supported to understand that what they feel is normal, and that life itself is actually dysfunctional, not what is being felt all the time by them. This is the way forth to create healthy well adjusted people.
without clairscentience there can be no energetic awareness, and without energetic awareness there can be no awareness of the fact of fire, which is our true essence.
And thus, without clairsentience, we are blind (wilfully so) and ill-equipped to respond to life, to truly live or to know true freedom.
you cannot reawaken to the fact of God without reawakening your clairscentience.
Its so interesting how we have come to rely on our minds as being where our ‘intellignce’ lies and completely overlooked our bodies as being ‘all knowing’. It begs the question of what a ‘brilliant mind’ means in truth, and how much of an opposing energy to truth that must take to override what the body is actually feeling.
If we truly listen we realize how much we naturally know.
Kerstin, yes it is as simple as that, if we truly listen and connect to our stillness, we actually realise how much we naturally know.
Listening to Serge Benhayon and the presentations of Universal Medicine has been incredibly liberating and empowering for me as it has been an experience of hearing all the things I already knew and KNOW deeply inside but had never had confirmed before, being spoken and presented publically and discovering everyone else is exactly the same and knows it too. My previous life experience had been the opposite and I had grown (or un-grown) to doubt my knowing. Now I absolutely know and trust my knowing and living that has transformed my life, health, well-being, relationships – everything.
These presentations have allowed me to recognise that this knowing is equally in us all.
Mary Lou, when we look back and review our life, its stages etc. and say how much we’d do it differently, or counsel a person much younger than ourselves, there are always ‘things’ we might suggest refraining from – though really it’s about ensuring there’s one thing that’s (always) present, worked on and deepened – and that’s love. It is the presence of love in our life that makes life true.
I’ve started to get that this knowing you describe so carefully Mary-Lou, still exists inside of me. If I just become still, it speaks clearly, and like the pull of a magnet it draws me to what I need next to undertake. But what I am seeing today is that it even knows the exact way I am to move and hold myself as I live every moment of my day. Refusing this impulse is to turn away the gift God constantly gives us in this world.
I really loved reading this blog and the honest sharing of how we override a very powerful and loving guide to what is true for us, our inner knowing ‘- our clairsentience. Yet the great inner resource is often abandoned for many reasons – reasons that, we often experience, harm us. When we do live from our knowing – there is an inner confidence, because we actually have something much deeper and vast support us.
yes because we have our universal connection which is always there to support us.
Thank you for the invitation to love myself a bit more deeply, to care for myself a bit more deeply, and in doing that connect more to my inner-knowing.
Our most valuabe asset, our ability to feel and trust what we know is the one this we seem to attack simply because we may not understand how to deal with certain situations or events.
Clairsentience, we all have it but most of us are not raised with this but instead were encouraged to ignore this and to give precedence over the mind. It starts already when your parents deny that you have seen things that are not from this three dimensional world but from other planes of life we are part of. Then later on we go to school where we again are encouraged to training the use of our mind instead of exploring and developing our clairsentience. Actually our upbringing and education system are all in denial of its existence. Could there be a reason behind, why this is happening, that there is a force in life that does not want us to go there, to connect with our clairsentience and the enormous awareness this brings, a awareness that exposes the lies of life we are actually living?
Beautifully expressed and shared Mary Lou, I can relate to this sentence ‘For me, it was about my expression. Being fearful to speak up and say what I knew’, I would shut down what I was feeling so that what came out of my mouth would not offend anyone, for me it was peace at any price. It has taken time for me to start to allow myself to really feel what I am feeling and let it be okay, and then speak up with what I am feeling, this trust in what I feel is gradually growing, and it feels great to honour myself in this way.
The moment we try to explain or justify why we know what we know or feel we already have disconnected a bit from it, not fully accepting and claiming it. To clearly know what we feel and know, trusting ourselves, allows for a very different communication and even when we may find to not to fully correct or even wrong it is not a big deal as we have the will to be honest and know why that was the case without any regret or judgment.
Isn’t it funny when we choose to avoid a particular person or decide against what we feel to and we end up in a situation SO complicated, sticky and tangled up whilst we can see that the other option would have taken a fraction of the time or energy… Like taking 20 minutes to go through the supermarket checkout, as opposed to three (which happened to me today)!
Indeed Susie, it will save a lot of time when we let go of our wandering mind and to fully rely on our feelings, our clairsentience instead.
I know, all my life, there have been things I just know. But as you say, do we learn from this, Mary-Lou? No, we override it, we let the mind have the upper hand and we sell ourselves out so we can live comfortably in this world and not stand out. Claiming ourselves back can be a sticky journey of sadness, hurts and difficult times, but what a joy to be reconnected back to our inner knowing that has been waiting patiently for us to return.
Yes, Mary-Lou, not expressing the truth of what we feel hurts us more than almost anything. It is so wonderful to feel how you are committing to a deeper level of expression and claiming back the inner knowing that you have always had.
We are all so wise and all knowing and we are already fully equipped to deal with whatever comes our way. I shut down my clairsentience and my inner knowing as soon as I gave up on life and decided I did not want to be here….life was too much of a struggle. That was then but now I make different choices including committing to life and loving myself which allows access to my inner knowing which supports me and prepares me for the next unfoldment in my life.
Mary-Lou, I can very much relate to this; ‘For me, it was about my expression. Being fearful to speak up and say what I knew’, speaking up is something that I am re-learning to do after many years of not expressing what I have been feeling, when I do speak up it feels very natural, empowering and great in my body and is not the big, scary thing that I think it might be.
“As I grew older, I began to make choices that were going against what I felt.” likewise I did the same, and the more I did the more angry and resentful I became, yet I was always the one making those choices and so through the depth of love of Serge and UniMed presentations I’ve been able to re-start the way I am in life by making choices that feel true even if they go against societies current “normal”.
Its way past time the whole world woke up to the fact of clairsentience and to start trusting that inner knowing we all have above the lies we have been sold through out the ages.
Society today will often dismiss the perceived ‘opinions’ of a child. The idiom ‘children should be seen and not heard’ comes to mind.
Isn’t this an exposing indictment on what we face en masse said yes to? A dismissal of our inner knowing, the purity we come from and so deeply know…
There is endless knowing in each of us, a vastness in our being, which is always there for us to access because it is us, once we make the choice to walk away from the illusion we have created in order to avoid the truth.
I was more arrogant and up myself whilst I did and taught yoga, and into all this ‘healthy’ eating, raw, superfoods, you name it and a chocolate snob too.
I think I’ve shut down to feeling – I feel but I know I feel a lot lot more, but I don’t want to – partly what I felt as a child I didn’t want to feel – secondly it means I’d have to be responsible and evolve – and if I’m honest I’ve got my feet stuck in comfort mud.
And the consequence of even simply knowing that this awareness is what we are born with brings the responsibility that we have to nurture our children in a way that this ability to feel stays with them… We don’t have to be perfect… We just don’t close the doors.
I love this line: “As a child, there were things I just knew.” It’s so true, as children we just knew and as adults we know too we just let our minds get in the way, I found the more I let myself know that I know in the last year that I can actually know things before they happen, so I can be ahead of time. I reckon we’d be astonished at just how much we do really know.
Isn’t it interesting how there can be so many poor choices made throughout life, and yet very rarely are we supported to equate these to an overriding of our clairsentience.
beautiful, it is about coming back to our innate sensitivity that we all see with children and know from being a child. It is this that is within and is reignited by the spark of self love, the spark of uniting back with the true source.
As a child, there were things I just knew, yes Mary-Lou we have that natural innocence and generally we are able to just be in our environment as we are and love life and exploring what’s around us and beaming lots of joy in the process.
As children we constantly get told to override our feelings, be brave, be tough, study and do sport until you are exhausted, hug the uncle who feels spooky.,. and so as adults it is no surprise that we have learnt to override how we feel. This prevents us living a full life, life with connection to your body and honouring your feelings is the way to thrive, not survive.
I never considered that I feel sad about the choices I have made or this is part of the sadness I feel / stored in my body – I do big time – so many things I’ve done to myself, situations and choices I’ve made I feel sad about. It’s good to acknowledge and feel that.
Some parts of “I just knew” stayed with me throughout childhood and youth – don’t cheat people, don’t do hard drugs and a few others. It was not a moral decision, simply things I wouldn’t do.
Mary-lou, I thought I was reading about me? It just goes to show we really are all from the same place..
‘There was also an underlying sense of abuse in the way I was prepared to put myself into situations that harmed, rather than honoured, myself.’ I am sure many of us can relate to this, if only we all chose to be aware and not to disconnect from our clairsentience at such a young age we would never make unloving or harming choices. Your blog is deeply honest Mary-Lou and a beautiful sharing of the power of re-connecting back to our true selves.
If we were ‘one’ with life when we were young and we are able to come back to trust ourselves… Than it must be that at one point in time we’ve chosen to make choices away from that innate inner knowing. Could it be that it is too painful for most of us to accept that we’ve left the precious being that we are behind and start surviving in life, rather than living. So appreciating the inner knowing, our clairsentience seems to be key. We do have a choice, but not making the choice makes us stray away from ourselves. We’re worth the path back to who we are! And what if it’s enormously joyful to walk together. It is…
It’s crazy for me to look back at how many years I have spent trying to numb out what I feel and avoid it when within that is the natural ability to feel everything we ever need to know.
I had the same, using books and other tools not to feel because I simply didn’t know how to handle what I felt and lacking the understanding that I could simply feel it.
When I was young I thought dying was the end and I would either go to hell or heaven. It was unlikely that I would get to heaven, as the priests said that this was for the really ‘good’ people and I was more a ‘sinner in their eyes, as I played up in mass. So I lived inconstant fear of death and hell, until I was old enough to start to question the church’s beliefs and realized it was a load of nonsense.
Clairsentience is a very powerful tool, but it does not make the choice for us. In the end it is about us developing the Will to make choices that support us and those around us rather than the will to make choices that do not support us and those around us. Amazingly powerful realisation! Thank you Mary-Lou for your personal sharing and how you have learned about clairsentience and the choices in life!
Living our life according to the picture we have created of how it ‘should’ look, is an imprisonment that keeps us living disconnected from the truth that we innately know within.
Thank you Mary-Lou It seems that life and the world could be very very different if we were supported to express from our clairsentience.
And if we are fighting ourselves in this way, no wonder inflammation is so common as cells in our body literally fight themselves.
When we confirm what someone has read about us, and the love they are offering, it confirms and expands everyone equally.
agree with this and it explains very clearly a cross roads that I often come to and have come to often in my life: “The choice to continue denying what I knew about the world of energy then became more obvious because there was an even deeper sadness about the choices. This explained the anger, as anger is just a form of suppressed and undealt with sadness.” The sadness of denying what I know is greater than the sadness or fear I have in not expressing it and so when I choose truth then I find my way. Again and again I have made this choose and doing so has changed how I feel and Live my life…no regrets.
I remember being laughed at by a teacher at school, and then the whole class because I brought up the subject of being a spirit when we die, and to me in my innocence I thought it was perfectly ok to talk about these things. Then within weeks this teacher became jaundiced and came back to work for a couple of week and then passed away, I remembered looking at him and thinking he is not long for this world and that maybe there was more behind me bringing up the subject of what happens when we die.
Everything works on a vibrational level first – the quality of our energetic vibration sets the scene for everything.
So simple, ThankyoU for this reminder Jenny.
Yes, lovely reminder Jenny to take into my day.
I had not realised how much we can know through our clairsentience before reading this, the proverbial penny has dropped. It’s not only what we may feel for instance behind something happening in the moment but also regarding far more complicated situations. Thank you, Mary-Lou.
I have found recently that the fear of not speaking up was because I didn’t value myself enough to feel worth speaking my truth to another. And now I am appreciating and valuing me and allowing myself to express when needed and feel much more solid within myself because I am backing myself and the love that I bring with this.
Great point Julie – we often do not speak up about something because we lack the value of ourselves, and hence we place another’s perceived value as being greater. And in this process we leave what is true for us to do or say and attempt to please another, and then ironically what we do or say is not necessarily even supportive for the other, not what they really wanted. Hence we ‘lose’ and they ‘lose’! How important is it that we stay with what feels right for us to begin with…but it comes back again to square one, the quality of relationship we have with ourselves and how much we respect and value who we are.
As children we feel what is going on and often express very honestly what we feel in the body but what is it that makes us separate from that and lose our direct correspondance with our body as we get older? Certainly fear of expression and fear of being different can stop us doing what we know is true so we follow the ‘herd’ rather than listen to what is true for us. But if we don’t succumb to that, we can be a role model for others to also be true to what they know is the way for them.
Reading how you knew who you wanted to be friends with as a child has really intrigued me. I too knew who I wanted to spend time with but often didn’t honour how I felt. I let all other stuff come in like they may not want to hang out with me or feeling sorry some people who seemed not to have friends and trying to make them feel included when actually they were probably fine!
So what about honouring what I feel and what the universe is offering which has greater wisdom than anything my mind can provide.
Through my teenage and adult life I was fighting what I was feeling because I didn’t like what it is that I was feeling so the only way to deal with this was to drink alcohol and take recreational drugs. Numbing myself so then as to not have to deal with anything. Only later did I realise how that was all being stored in my body thanks to Universal Medicine and Esoteric Healing courses that I attended. I wouldn’t of known I really had all that inside of me because I had created such a coping mechanism way of living in the world to get by and fit in with the way it was operating. Thanks goodness I was introduce to Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine thats all I can say. I wouldn’t want to meet myself the way I was going 13 years down the line, it wouldn’t have been pretty that’s all I’m saying.
To be met in full by an adult or ‘significant other’ is the greatest beginning for a solid inner foundation to be there for life.
Why do we train our children to opt for ‘good’, ‘acceptable’ & ‘nice’ instead of what they can innately feel to be ‘true’? We end up learning this way of negotiation our way through life: trying to second-guess what is expected of us rather than the power and absoluteness of inner knowing that every one us of can inherently tap into. So much anxiety and protection is based on just this one factor alone.
Very true Golnaz – we set ourselves up for a life in disharmony, such as suffering from anxiousness and depression etc. when we learn to live our life not honouring what we innately know is true and continue to do this as adults.
It seems to me Golnaz that we want the best for our children and we misguidedly want them to fit into society and get a good secure job with a great marriage and 2.5 kids. This is the ideal we have all been fed. When all this has been achieved, we feel fulfilled as parents and that our task is done. I know someone who’s son is in his mid 30’s he is single with no prospect of marriage or kids and his mother is freaking out because he is not conforming to her pictures of how life should be and where he should be in his life. Which is in a secure job, married with kids, because all his friends have completed this task why hasn’t he? So strong are these pictures and beliefs that they feel let down, that they are getting old with no prospect of grandchildren. The pressure on her son to conform to societies expectations must be huge.
I must admit Mary I am familiar with such stories as well and at times been caught in them myself. Yet how many people who tick all the boxes that makes parents proud in that manner, are depressed, anxious, exhausted and even sadly taking their own lives? These images of what is a great life are clearly selling us short.
i was talking to my adult daughter recently about the sixth sense of clairsentience, it was a lovely conversation as we both agreed we had an inner knowing we connected to. This felt different from our normal communication and I really appreciated how we were able to express honestly together. Now we can nurture and build on this foundation in the future.
True, I realized that I did not appreciate until some weeks ago how much I am feeling and misinterpreted my own feelings against myself. There are certainly lots of people who do the same and especially children as they seldom get confirmation or a true reflection.
One of the most empowering things that a child can experience is feeling an adult respect and honour what they have read.
The depth of your reflection here feels very empowering in how it has enabled you to realise all the choices were right there for you to live your fullness, and they still are.
‘I knew these things because of what I was feeling, rather than what I thought in my head.’ – It is interesting how we as we grow older learn to rely on what our mind is telling us rather than what we are feeling in our body.
I know the feeling of for a while being able to stay free from something but then in the end enjoining the group – like for instance with drinking alcohol and coffee I never liked it but then tried it anyway. I feel it comes from the fact we do not honour what we feel in the first place, like I might have not felt like going to that party where I ended up drinking so much alcohol I tried a cigarette as well and felt proud of it (at the time). It is the dishonouring of ourselves, ignoring what we have to say and feel about something that we don’t want to feel and therefore numb with alcohol, drugs, food… etc. etc. If we don’t dishonour ourselves there is much less need to numb and check out of ourselves.
As adults we do not give children enough credit for their inner wisdom. When we allow children to express themselves naturally as equals it is truly phenomenal what can come through them.
I agree, Michelle, some children, from a very early age, are able to express words of incredible wisdom and the fortunate ones are those whose parents listen instead of trying to shut them up because the truths spoken are too uncomfortable.
When we connect to our inner knowing, we know so much more than what I limited mind allows us to know!
When I was seven years old something happened in my life that I knew was wrong. I followed my inner knowing, pushed through my fears and spoke up. It led to myself and brother being removed from a family that was unloving and had the potential to become abusive.
At times all the practicalities and logic may advise you to do one thing but your feeling tells you differently. We need to check what we feel for its quality and source, does it come from reaction or need, or is it a genuine feeling of knowing what feels right or even true. The latter relates to clairsentience or an even deeper sense of knowing and usually if not always will prove to be the right choice although at the time we may not yet see the whole picture or unfoldment.
Mary-lou, I can relate to much of what you say. I abandoned my inner-knowing, followed my head and the crowd and said yes to cigarettes, alcohol and drugs. When I look back I feel the insecurities that made me want to fit in and be liked. Five decades later, I’ve returned home, becoming more familiar with and learning to trust my ever-present inner guide.
Yep we know that we know and we deliberately make choices that counter this knowing to fit in with what and who is around us. And it’s actually the best feeling when you make a choice that you can feel is right for you and stick by it no matter what.
“I knew that to take drugs was not something I wanted to do, nor was it a wise choice.” the same with me with Drugs and Alcohol yet when I grew up, feeling like nothing made sense I turned to what I knew was not true. It’s quite amazing how in society when we are young we know what is true, we do not need to be told, yet through how we as society have constructed what values we hold as important young people grow up and go against their truth in order to cope with life, when life was never meant to be coped with but lived in full.
“I have been inspired to live what I already knew by the presentations and teaching of The Ancient Wisdom presented by Serge Benhayon from Universal Medicine.” Every workshop, every Retreat I am blown away by just how much Serge Benhayon brings to the fore our innate being-ness, empowering us to free ourselves from the beliefs and limitations we have succumbed to and reconnect with our inner counsel once more. And then our responsibility is listening to and responding to our inner knowing above and beyond anything that exists in the external world.
Mary-Lou, this is really supportive, ‘I have only been able to come back to living from my knowing because I started to love myself – to really love myself, deeply. This is a work in progress, and I practise this every day, by continually making choices that are loving.’ I love the simplicity and beauty of what you are sharing here and what a great job – to love ourselves deeply!
Is our clairsentience a bit like a spiders web that spreads out from us that allows us to feel everything and over time we turn into wolf spiders that don’t spin webs and only use their eyes, and we then fit the idiom of we can’t see past the end of our nose?
What you shared Mary-Lou about anger makes so much sense. Since I started to heal a deep level of sadness, I no longer have experiences of anger. The key for me was to allow myself to feel any undealt sadness whenever it came up and embrace the realisations of why I held onto sadness then eventually infolds, clears and allows me to feel more myself.
I found that it took quite some time to let go of what seemed to be an addiction to the sadness. As I connected more to the true me, I could then begin to see that I was really feeding off the sadness. Healing the deep level of sadness and living without anger is true freedom.
‘And behind that image, I was a drug user’ – love how you have exposed not only how manipulative and canny we can be ‘presenting’ as meeting a certain picture, yet underneath the truth is another story completely, but also, how we see what we want to see. In truth, we can all feel and read energy, so if we want to be aware, we can feel when things are not as they may at first appear.
Re-reading your blog this morning, I am giving myself a tender hug as I allow myself to feel the hurt from when I started to dis-miss my clairsentience as my need to fit in was greater than my pull to honour my gorgeous self. This started a pattern – as I started to feel an emptiness within, feeling I was lacking in some way, rather than admitting I’d made a mistake and choosing to re-connect with my inner wisdom, I chose to look around for outside advice, comparing myself to others, trying to be someone I was not, chasing rainbows that just led me further and further away from my divine self. Thank goodness for the bright light of Universal Medicine, illuminating the path back home, I am now once again very aware of and listening to my treasured clairsentience.
Yes, I have always found it strange that the alternative lifestyle often encompasses both a careful audit what to eat and what not to eat but also the liberal use of drugs, denying their obvious harm.
I heard someone describe ‘self-care’ as going off to a yoga retreat with plenty of wine. It isn’t anywhere near self care…what is sought is relief from the tension of not living the true self.
It is very supportive when you let in the fact that life does not let you go, nor does God, and yet it is equally a shame that we allow our momentums in life to get to the point where we need something as extreme as an accident to wake us up to what is truly important.
The fact that every child has had this knowing at some point just shows our equality across this realm.
“…true energetic freedom that comes from being dead honest with what I am feeling and making decisions from that place…” This statement stood out for me as you hit the nail on the head… that true freedom comes with expression from this way, and your whole body ‘fires’ / ‘lights’ up in letting you know when you are speaking your truth.
Not valuing myself is where I would override my inner feelings and make myself wrong within something. This may have seemed to be a comfortable arrangement with myself, where I didn’t rock the boat, but actually was quite uncomfortable and very unloving for those involved. The truly loving thing would be to simply honour what I felt and express that, as within that, there is no need for anything back from the other because you are simply stating a truth for you, and that’s worth honouring.
The restoration of my clairsentience has opened my eyes and freed me to being who I am, seeing and accepting the world for what it is and can be, deepened my relationship with people, helped me to disentangle me from the emotional rollercoaster of ups and downs… It is a different world, a different life and allows for true awareness.
That is true and when you have a bout of feeling bad, your clairsentience can tell you the cause, giving you a choice to make a difference and that is just one example of clairsentience being supportive.
As much as I like to play games and deny what I know, play the little girl, even the hurt little girl voice, the I don’t know game. I actually am very very powerful and know exactly what I want, what’s needed in that instant, and the answer to everything. But I like to go into my head to avoid evolving.
This is GOLD Gyl, “I actually am very very powerful and know exactly what I want, what’s needed in that instant, and the answer to everything. But I like to go into my head to avoid evolving”.
A great question to ask – why we override our deep inner knowing at the expense of ourselves?
I agree Deborah. For me, whenever I ignore my inner knowing it is often because I want to please people, to fit in or to seek recognition, all because I choose to listen to my spirit and not my soul.
The way we choose to live has a profound and powerful effect on our lives, and the lives of all others we come into contact with… “…it is in the Way I Live and the quality I choose in everything I do every day that has supported me to listen to my CLAIRSENTIENCE.”
In our anxious state of striving to perfect our ideals and images, there is a great disharmony and unsettlement in our bodies – because our bodies know they have all the answers within, always have and always will… and they unrelentingly send us messages telling us so – hence the angst created when we ignore them!
It is so true Mary-Lou that when we constantly seek an ideal or image outside of ourselves, we also create a constant state of anxiousness… because deep down we know we will never get what we truly seek out there – because it is always inside us, patiently waiting for us to reconnect to: Our evolutionary path is an inward journey.
Mary-Lou I know countless times I have overridden my feelings to satisfy a greater need or cover a deeper hurt, yet now, since being at the presentations and teaching of The Ancient Wisdom presented by Serge Benhayon, I’m far more able to catch what it is that’s going on give space to what it is I’m feeling. This feels to be a much more honouring relationship to have with myself.
‘Looking back, I see that I ignored what I was truly feeling a lot, and this choice to disregard my feelings often ended with very serious consequences.’ – Looking back I can relate to this too, and I find it interesting that even when my diregarding choices ended with serious consequenses I did not join the dots enough to make a change, if fact I was living my life as if I had no choice but to override my feelings. How crazy is that?
To know and understand that there is always unexpressed sadness underneath anger, is a great start; from that basis, the real issues can then be addressed.
Dear Mary-Lou,
Thank you sharing your journey with us all and feel that you speak on behalf for many people who ignore their inner knowing and in reaction to that relieve themselves with drugs etc… I for one can relate to every word in your blog.
It seems we ignore what to be true to be accepted/liked and join in on behaviours that we know that are not right for us.
What a huge turn around that you have made and I enjoyed reading every single word – how inspiring to make true change starting with allowing ourselves to feel everything and honour that no matter how ugly it may feel.
After reading your sharing I realised making loving choices throughout our day to the best of our ability will support the body to handle what we do feel.
Is it any wonder when we do not learn to honour our natural clairsentience we end up on numbing devices such as drugs, alcohol, food etc. to ‘cope’ with what is we do not want to feel?
Reading the first line (for the 3rd time) “As a child, there were things I just knew.”, I allowed myself to feel that I don’t feel this. I want it to be true, but I don’t consciously remember my childhood. What I can feel is a lot of hardness. As well as a lack of understanding towards myself about this hardness. To me this is amazing! No more knowledge, but simply being raw and real about what’s truly happening on the inside. Thank you for writing down your experiences.
Its interesting how often we are surprised when a child speaks words of wisdom, as there is a tendency to ‘think’ that only adults know everything. How wrong we are.
I can certainly relate to this experience of not listening to those clear knowings of what is a wise choice in a situation. What I realise as I read this blog again is that I have had a belief that they are occasional or even random moments of clarity, rather than a way that can be constantly connected to and lived. What I know now is that this clarity of knowing is in fact always available to us if we choose to pay heed to it – and this makes much more sense to me than the possibility that we have random flashes of knowing what is or is not true for us.
“Listening to the divine wisdom of the heart, that was there all along” makes so much sense. Children have this innate sense of inner knowing, but are often over-ridden by the adults in their life, as many of us were too when younger. So there is no blame. As we reflect that there is a different way to live and express, so the world will change, one step at a time.
Re-connecting to that part of me that I remember totally relying on as a child – my inner knowing and wisdom – I feel more myself than I have for a long time.
It is really beautiful, Mary-Lou, to feel you re-connect to the purity and inner knowing you felt as a child.
As children we do know so much through what we can feel. Often this is overriden by adults who do not want to ackowledge what it is that is being exposed, be it a relative who we don’t want to hug, or a house or a room that doesn’t feel safe. We then learn to distrust our feelings so this sense is not valued later on in life. Honouring our clairsentience is one of the greatest things we can do for ourselves. We can reclaim it and begin to live life from this sense once again.
“I knew that dying was not the end; that we were connected to something far greater than this physical, material world.” I remember having this feeling, and looking back how much I struggled with feeling things that made sense to me but the world around me did not confirm this. In fact reincarnation where I grew up was laughed at. No wonder each generation gets its problems as they come in with the truth and that gets eroded away. Far better to ask the children to teach the world rather than us try and teach the children.
It is so natural to know what we feel as children, and I also remember knowing how I was losing that feeling with smaller children or others who had held onto it. I remember thinking I was very grown up at that time, making different decisions and choices for myself that took me further away from my clairsentience, all a cover up for the great sadness and loss I was feeling.
We often think of our greatest friends as being the ones who were ‘always there’ and consistently share the truth with us – ‘straight’. Yet when I read your story Mary-Lou I get to realise our body and Soul is there for us 24/7 every day, it never leaves our side or tells us lie. The most dedicated friend you could ever find. Yet we often willfully misinterpret and twist what they say and dismiss them every day. If we want to enjoy a life of riches and true wealth the place to start is by welcoming in and hugging yourself 🙂
Very true Joseph. We often believe our closest friends are our life long supporters, in my experience people and friendships can come and go. As you say, our Body and Soul are truly constant and when we shift and align to the ‘dedicated friend’ within, we are never alone or feel lacking in anyway.
This is so beautiful Joseph. We are our own best friend, yet we deserted ourselves. We deserted our divinity, therefore we desserted ALL. And how simply amazing it is to just re-connect and live more and more from our body/soul connection.
I recently again felt the riches and true wealth that are there for us all and I can assure you it was not from anything outside of me. This was a difficult lesson for me to learn and needed me to let go of ‘comfort’ in order to really get it. Once all comfort was gone, I found ‘the most dedicated friend I could ever find’.
‘I knew that dying was not the end; that we were connected to something far greater than this physical, material world’ – Isn’t this amazing, that as a child you had a sense that dying wasn’t a finite end to life but part of a greater cycle… When we don’t have attachments or ideals, it’s so much easier to explore the bigger picture and understand what’s going on past what is physically in front of us.
As a child, I was also very aware of my own clairsentience and very aware of how everyone felt around me. I knew in a nano second which adults felt safe to be around and who I could trust even before they opened their mouths to speak. Over time, I let this awareness of life dim as I became more mental with the world and I would often ignore what I felt. Instead of opting for the alcohol and smoking route, I invested heavily in being successful and trying to look the part – all the while trying to cover up my insecurities and lack of confidence.
When we bring true value to our expression and what we feel or know from inside it makes it much more natural to honour what we really feel rather than override or dismiss it.
Yesterday I failed to act on two gentle messages to do something before I left the house. The consequence of this created a momentum of rushing, through the day that was totally avoidable. .
Great call Kehinde – when we don’t bring awareness to what is playing out, the momentum of it all would just keep building. Calling it out is key.
Yes, it is so subtle yet the ripple effect can be enormous.
Thank you Mary-Lou – you remind me that my clairsentience is a very natural part of me.
‘I knew that to take drugs was not something I wanted to do, nor was it a wise choice.’ It is interesting that there are so many things we do which are harmful to us which we knew innately to avoid when we were children – and yet we trust adults to teach our children.
Yes, Michael, perhaps it should be the children teaching the adults or rather reminding them of their preciousness and clairsentience.
You are so right that the classes we attend are just small stop’s on our journey in life, like before smartphones and sat-navs when we would stop and ask for directions just to ensure we are on the right path and then move forward.
As a child I had parents that seldom drank alcohol and seldom went to parties but one time when I was very young we went to a New Year’s Eve Party which for all the wrong reasons has stuck in my head as one of my earliest memories. I just remember feeling how horrible it feel to be kept up that late anyway, but it was my first encounter with people drinking alcohol and even though everyone looked really happy and were having a good time it felt like being in a house full of monsters. Looking back if and being able to feel how it felt back then now, it is a shame for me that I didn’t remember the feeling when I started drinking myself years later. I could have saved my poor old body a lot of abuse.
Thanks for the vivid example Kev. If we remained aware that a place seems like a house full of monsters when people are drinking, there is no way we would enjoin with this activity. In fact if we didn’t close down our connection to our clairsentience there is no way we would engage in even half the abusive choices we make as adults.
It is interesting how we can ‘know’ something, not because anyone has told us, but because we feel it to be true, and then disregard this truth in favour of doing the exact opposite, giving our power away to ‘please’ another or the group, even if we know in our hearts that they are wrong. So strong has been our desire to fit in. However, accepting the incredible mess we are all living in today and how far we have strayed from our true selves, it’s humbling and inspiring to know that by honouring our ‘knowing’ within we are, through the power of reflection’ encouraging others to do exactly the same and bit by bit, the tide will slowly turn as we return to our true way of being together.
As I read through all the things you innately ‘knew’ I could relate to every single one and felt a sadness within as I acknowledged how I also gave up on myself, bit by bit as I chose to ignore my inner voice and do things just to fit in, to be liked, to not stand out, to protect myself from judgment. However hard my mind tries to persuade me otherwise, I know that the knowing I hold deep within in the truth and never anything but the truth.
This is a beautiful and very honest expose’ of how we can succumb to the distractions of life and reject our inner knowing-ness and divinity. No child wants to be a drug addict, no child wants to put themselves in danger and children don’t self-harm to avoid what they are feeling.
Oh wow, powerfully true.
Children naturally know and honour their clairsentience.
Great point Rachael, children are very attuned at that young age, things only start to change as they start to take on beliefs and ideals around their families.
The inner knowing knows, yet we let our minds and outer influences take over. I have done this as have so many of us. It is great when we are able to re-connect to that knowing, trust it, and know what is okay and not for ourselves and not because anyone else has told us so.
We can be affected by how people dress, how they look can create an image of who they are in the world, but when we feel deeper, we may find there is more to know. We can learn so much when we allow ourselves to feel.
This is similar to what I feel has happened in my life. and just like you Mary-Lou I have come full circle. Returning to the understanding that this journey is a never-ending-cycle and we can return to reading what is going on around us if we are open enough to feel the truth again. When I opened my heart to the healing that is available through the Universal Medicine Therapies my life is back on track to understanding how clairsentience works so that I can return to being aware through reconnecting to my holy intuitiveness.
‘What is it about the mind that ‘wins out’?’ An excellent question because really it is a no brainer (pun intended) which should be winning out!
Accepting our inner voice and listen to it is such a deep blessing for ourselves. People want to be heard, desperately. Mainly because so many people that I meet don’t really listen to themselves. We’re super precious, delicate being that deserve to be treated with the utmost love and care. Which in fact is natural, yet we’ve gone against it big time! Our clairsentience, our one and only, very powerful healing tool. Right inside us!
Great point Susan, regarding how our need to be liked can overcome our expression of what’s true for us. Only recently have I noticed how empowering and energizing it is for me when I have the courage to express what I am feeling to others even though I know it may not be accepted well. It seems that the more I do that, the easier it is to share my feelings the next time, even though I may have felt that doubt or fear of being rejected creeping in at first. If we hold back what is our truth, we are not allowing others to potentially learn from what we have to share too.
It seems that growing up involves to forget or neglect one´s inner knowing that is natural to us as children. Then we are adults but not yet grown up as growing up actually means to take full responsibility for oneself in life, including the discarding of everything we have chosen and taken on that doesn´t belong to our true making and expression. Thereby we restore or uncover what has been our natural sense and right as children – clairsentience and our inner knowing.
Yes, Mary-Lou. Absolute honesty is key in honouring everything that we feel and in re-instating the wisdom we innately had as a child.
This was an absolutely fantastic blog, thankyou. Really humbled when I read this because it reminds me that we are all the same and experience this inner knowing.
Healing can happen during every phase of our lives, this is significant.
As an adult I still have these feelings and knowing’s but push them aside – and yet also live with the frustration of knowing I knew something, not trusting it only to have my feeling confirmed – the only way to avoid this feeling is to express in full what we feel, and sometimes we get it wrong and we learn that perhaps the feeling wasn’t coming from the truth of who we are but a hurt or reaction and from this we can grow.
You have shown a great example of the difference between a person who looks like they are healthy by exercising, dieting and reading the latest books and one who actually is healthy due to living from the love they have for themselves. This is the central core that is essential to any health and wellbeing plan. It cannot be bought with a book, clothes or a gym membership. It has to be built over time from inside.
Starting to honor yourself again as an adult is like using a limb after it has been in a plaster casts for some time. It is weak and scrawny at first from all the years of abuse and disregard. But once it gets regularly exercised, it comes back to be strong just as strong again.
The fact that we keep going and repeating patterns that we know are damaging for us is something we need to look at with true honesty. Could it be that for some reason it suits us well to stay in the comfort of not seeing that we have a choice? No matter how bad things are, there is always a possibility for true change.
There used to be courses run on learning to say ‘No’ and it is rather sad that a natural way of being has to be relearned. When we are truly in touch with what is going on, especially in our bodies, we know instantly if something we are being asked to do is true or not, and if we honour that, we can be so much more clear in all our communications. Our body language will always tell truth, and if our words do not match, that’s where confusion happens.
Giving up on what we know to be true, we have all done this and know it is to our own detriment. It is not mysterious or special it just takes courage and honesty to choose the wisdom we all know. Thank you Mary-Lou for putting Clairsentience in terms we can all relate to.
“I have let go of so much, on so many levels, that at times I have felt such unrest that I wondered if harmony would ever be restored in my body and my life.” I remember the feeling of unrest too Mary-Lou and wondering if it would ever go, but looking back I can also see I was fighting what was naturally going to be inevitable change that made the unsettlement and unrest a lot worse than it possibly needed to be.
‘I have learnt that it is not what I am interested in and reading about and the classes I am attending that bring change, but it is in the Way I Live and the quality I choose in everything I do every day that has supported me to listen to my CLAIRSENTIENCE’ – so true, it’s each and every choice that we make that honours who we truly are, that inspires us to share our truth and appreciate absolutely everything about our gorgeous selves -all these choices support us to listen to our divine wisdom, this knowing that we hold deep inside.
As you say Mary-Lou we all do know as children we have this in built radar, but as we get older we stop paying attention to it and eventually it gets put to one side in favour of all the external distractions that catch our eyes and we learn to rely on our brain rather than our whole body. Re establishing our connection back to a clairsentient way of life is fun because life opens up in front of us and we become so much more aware of life and what is going on in it.
Wow, what a beautiful blog, thank you Mary-Lou. It felt very humbling to read how honouring you are of yourself today and all your choices to put aside all those things that don’t belong, that for many years held you hostage and silenced your divine expression.
“So all the while I was reading the right books and living in a way that looked like I loved myself by exercising and eating well and doing courses” – this could be said of any book, courses, and how we eat – even with The Ancient Wisdom as I have done and many do – that is come from knowledge instead of living it.
The questions you ask about why you chose what you chose when your immediate blood family didn’t shows that we come from something much bigger than our blood family.
Why is it as kids, not one child in the entire world would say yes I want to smoke, take drugs, and drink alcohol? They say a strong no – yet when many grow into adults many of us do one, two or all three of those. I know as a child there are many many things I would never do and if someone said to me when you grow up would you like to have s boyfriend like this, there are many I would say absolutely no way, yet I did. So the question to ask is what happens to us between that innocence, clarity and absolute knowing of a child and growing up? Why do we walk away from ourselves and everything we hold and know that is absolutely dear and true to us?
The undealt with sadness impacts on so many areas of our lives. I have found that this sadness is from that disconnection with myself. I know how amazing I am(humanity can be) on one level and when that is not lived there is a sadness.
The undealt with sadness impacts on so many areas of our lives. I have found that this sadness is from that disconnection with myself. I know how amazing I am(humanity can be) on one level and when that is not lived there is a sadness.
‘I have only been able to come back to living from my knowing because I started to love myself – to really love myself, deeply. ‘ Very true Mary-Lou – this can only happen when we start to truly appreciate the truth of who we are.
Its interesting now we can often get chastised by others for expressing our inner knowing. Because it reflects to them something they have but have forgotten. It can bring up a lot of reaction in people. Which isn’t a bad thing.
I have seen others having the conviction to express, walk and talk and live what they know, without holding this back and this has been deeply inspirational.
For me, it was about my expression. Being fearful to speak up and say what I knew. What I knew and felt from a place deep within that bypassed the mind. Fearful of the verbal attack that might come at me, or of not being liked. This is a very common feeling for most I would say, I know I can vouch for holding that being liked part against myself and stopping myself from speaking up when something didn’t feel true. It’s so great to be letting all of those ideals and beliefs go, to then return to the sacredness of the woman once more, as you are definitely choosing Mary-Lou.
Thank you Mary-Lou, your story is easy to relate to in how we can over ride what we really know and feel yet can still connect to, which is divinely ours, our clairsentience.. in every one of us.
The amount of time it can take, and the number of lessons which occur in this time for us to realise the harm of the force coming through our mind and overriding our sixth sense shows just what a hold this mental force has over us. Once you allow awareness to return however this is easy to begin to break.
It’s so important to have a relationship to ourselves that isn’t based on ‘rules and regulations’ or precise disciplines but rather care and love, because when we make rules about what we should and shouldn’t eat, when we should sleep, exercise etc. we can actually limit our personal evolution, and it doesn’t give us the space to observe how what we eat may change as we take more care in our lives etc.
It is easy to see how a child shuts down and starts to discard the inner knowing for the outside of them offerings, especially when all the adults around are doing just that.
Being discerning in our movements is important and be aware that the mind constantly pulls us in its direction. We must remain steadfast in our commitment to align with universal intelligence, not be led astray by whims and fancies specifically placed to sabotage movements towards truth.
“I am learning to express and speak up and follow what I feel to be true for me.” Its so liberating to actually express what we feel rahter than hold it back for fear of upsetting another. And when it comes to it, when we speak from the truth of what we know and who we are, it all becomes very simple.
Honouring our body’s natural intelligence, is the true way of living and empowering.
We all know when we have not trusted our inner knowing and made an ill choice as it weighs heavily in our bodies.
At school I was certain that I didn’t want to smoke. I saw smoking as a waste of time, money and absurd as people would smoke straight after doing exercise which made no sense to me whatsoever. Over the years and with the intensity of school I chose to override this feeling and then spent the next 20 years trying to undo this pattern which established itself by a simple choice to override what was true for me so that I could ‘fit in’ with those around me.
We all know what we feel it is whether we give space to that voice to be heard and trust what we know to be true.
We do ‘just know’. But so often we override this due to what we think needs to happen or what we think we need. If we trust our knowing we can allow things to unfold, and often we can be surprised and delighted by the result. In this way life can be an adventure of discovery as we observe the unfolding without control.
“This momentum of choosing abuse did not begin in this life.” by being open to the fact of re-incarnation it brings a level of understanding and responsibility to life that is otherwise vacant. Having always felt there to be more to life than just this life, it is deeply confirming to life that knowing each day and the result is being open to a far deeper truth.
Mary-Lou, I can so relate to this; ‘What I knew and felt from a place deep within that bypassed the mind. Fearful of the verbal attack that might come at me, or of not being liked’, I am coming out of this now and starting to simply say what I am feeling and to be more honest, I can feel that I shut down this natural expression for many years, being quiet and not wanting any confrontation, I have observed that as children this is how we are encouraged to be – to tow the line and comply.
Our true feelings tell us everything we need to know in an instance. Learning how to keep them clear of emotion is the real trick, so that we do not flavour these messages with our own agenda.
I was struck with the significance of reading a quite impressive list of what as a child you could observe followed by: “I knew these things because of what I was feeling, rather than what I thought in my head. This feeling ‘thing’ was just there. I did not have to try or think about these things. I just knew.”
It is curious that we use education to wean our young out of this innate access to awareness and wisdom and instead train them to memorise and regurgitate facts. And from there on this is what becomes our definition of ‘intelligence’.
When I was young I had this feeling that ‘somebody knows’ and I kept looking until I found someone who knew. It was worth the search.
Ignoring what we know to the core of our being to be true is what makes life appear to be complicated. When we simply do what we know deep down to be true to do, and not what we might think we want to do, life flows far more simply and clearly.
‘However, what I am now feeling is the true energetic freedom that comes from being dead honest with what I am feeling and making decisions from that place.’ – Wow Mary Lou, love this statement. It is deeply empowering to make decisions and express from a place of truth.
Living what we know – it is so beautifully simple and wise. I watch my young toddler play and experiment with her body and what she knows; where the edge of the stairs are, how much milk she needs, when to eat, how fast to walk. It is actually a great reflection to me. She is so aware and it comes so naturally.
Yes, a great role model of being aware and not second-guessing that awareness. Quite beautiful.
100% with you on this one Mary-Lou, “I am learning to express and speak up and follow what I feel to be true for me.”
Ignoring my ‘inner knowing’ has had a huge impact on my life from the age of three. I knew there were incidents that had left an enormous impact without knowing why. It wasn’t until I began to attend Universal Medicine courses that the pieces of the puzzle began to fall into place and I could begin the process of understanding and healing.
Thank you Mary- Lou, this is incredible. What a true change. Feeling the strength and power you have resided in your heart and felt the urgency to change as it was not working. Truly beautiful as to feel from how far we have come and see that we can break ourselves free from the abuse we have once lived.
We abuse a body that is divine by nature and make the choice to go against all we know is true to become recognised by others, wanting to be confirmed we are allowed to live in this world. I agree Mary-Lou this abuse we do to ourselves is coming from more lives than just this one. And when say enough and no to the abuse and start to respond to what our body is telling us we feel how the love within ourselves has never left.
The proof that ‘clairsentience’ exists is ever present in our little ones – how often have we heard and observed amazing wisdom in children yet over-ridden, overlooked or undermined this wisdom. The role modelling through our early years sets us up to continuously reject the inner knowing that resides within until that moment when we finally choose to deeply love ourselves. As you have shared Mary Lou – ‘I have only been able to come back to living from my knowing because I started to love myself – to really love myself, deeply’.
It is such a trick to think that the seemingly small choices we make don’t have an impact on one’s life, when in truth they lay the foundation for the next choice.
When I reflect back I can feel how much I feel and know. And then comes the choice to bury, deny or allow the awareness to be expressed.
Knowing we have an inner navigation that is 100% reliable is what allows us to trust ourselves in life, rather than thinking we have to learn to trust another.
Starting to love ourselves Mary-Lou, instead of beating ourselves up about where we have gone wrong or made poor choices and decisions, is the way forwards. As you say, it has to be deeply nurturing, deeply loving, really turning around the old momentum of self bashing, and noticing if the head starts to return to old patterns. The true feeling is always there waiting for us to return to it.
Fake it till you make it, they say. Not really true, but what is true is that if you don’t know true love, then start with self love. That of course will be a mental construct, but will in itself assist you to develop rhythms in your life that in themselves create movements, or expressions that assist one to build a body of love.
Thinking we are living lives of love is miles away from the the Livingness of Love we are all capable of.
Reading the first part of your blog Mary-Lou, would confirm to anyone that we all have clairsentience. We could all go back in time and recall many moments we moved from our minds and not from the truth of our bodies.
Complying to fit in seems the most common experience for many of us. If we all had the courage to follow what we truly felt, ‘the many to comply to’ would simply not exist and would leave an honouring of each person’s choice instead.
To take steps away from conforming and to be bold for change is absolutely life changing.
There are so many markers of health in the world, healthy food, health detox, health farm, and yet are they it? is there anything more heathy than playing ball with the fact we are clairesentient beings.
You raise an interesting point – how often do we know the truth of something and then feel the need to confirm it – we know that drinking isn’t something we want to do but we go ahead anyway, only to have a massive hang over – we know a certain food makes us sleepy, racy, bloated but we eat it any way and then suffer the end result – often several times over before we will finally give into what our bodies knew at the start and stop choosing those things.
“I knew these things because of what I was feeling, rather than what I thought in my head. This feeling ‘thing’ was just there. I did not have to try or think about these things. I just knew.” isn’t that a great knowing to appreciate and acknowledge that as children we are all knowing and it is in our bodies that the intelligence lies.
I find it fascinating that we keep our selves dull, play dumb, ignore what we know to be true just so we can fit in with our friends, family and the world around us. Why do we do this? Thank heavens literally for Serge Benhayon who says it like it is, he speaks his truth no matter how many feathers he ruffles along the way. And he has ruffled my feathers because he has shown me just how much I have played small to fit into society and not speak up out of a fear of upsetting other people. This just keeps the status quo but this isn’t working because as a society we are becoming so very sick which shows to me that something is out of balance with the way we live. It’s like we are all pretending nothing is wrong with our lives while all around us people are dropping like flies through illness and disease, will it take the last person standing to ask the question that no one wants to ask yet, what has happened to us as a race of Human Beings that we feel we can’t we live our truth? That we would rather become sick and ill than speak what we know in our hearts to be true, this doesn’t make any sense to me at all.
‘As a child, there were things I just knew.’ This is how it is for every child. How the world would change if each of us supported each child we met by nurturing this knowing.
It is crazy how we all learn to suppress the most natural thing in the world, the ability to know what is going on simply by honouring what we feel.
This is a great account of, in detail, how we derail ourselves from the super sensitive aware child to the shutdown self-abusive adult many choose to become.
There is always a choice whether to be guided by what we feel from within or to allow ourselves to be influence by what is going on around us. Our awareness in this sense is always developing.
Holding back from expressing what we know to be true has many consequences, often dire for ourselves and our bodies. Speaking our truth from our inner knowing supports us to call out abuse wherever we see it including towards ourselves.
Pure gold Mary-Lou to everyone who knows that they want to get out of the momentum of disregard of everything that we know.. “I have only been able to come back to living from my knowing because I started to love myself – to really love myself, deeply. This is a work in progress, and I practice this every day, by continually making choices that are loving. This is what has made the difference.”
It is in the Way we Live and the quality chosen in everything throughout our day that supports us to listen to our clairsentience.
There is another level of looking after ourselves we can go to, where we’re not only making choices which support our natural shape, fitness and health, but also support our awareness and clairesentience. In other words, not making ourselves feel dense and unable to see what’s really going on around us clearly.
I can relate here to suppressing that instant knowing or sensing that we have in every situation and allowing the mind to come in and question, doubt or completely over-ride what we are feeling. Re-learning to come back to honouring and valuing my inner knowing (that I had as a child) has been one of the greatest things I have done as an adult.
We seek quick fixes and solutions rather than listening to our innate knowing of what is true for our body and what is not.
I would say I was far more lost and arrogant when I was doing and teaching yoga, all the health fads, and going down the new age health route – than I was when I partied.
Yes, I agree Gyl- I too felt I was more lost doing New age modalities, and meditation led by a Guru, which kept me in illusion. All the time I thought I was on the right path. The biggest mistake was that I didn’t discern the energy. I longed to be part of group; feel special. However, I was giving my power away.
Thankfully, it is all a matter of making a different choice- one felt deep within our hearts- returning to our natural inner knowing or clairsentience.
There is no one on earth apart from Serge Benhayon who presents the fact we already are, and know everything we want to know inside ourselves – everything else is set up by ourselves to keep us chasing our tails.
Thank you Mary-Lou for a great blog. It exposes how we do know what is best for us and what we do or do not want to do, but over time we allow this to be eroded down by wanting to be part of the crowd or to please others. Essentially we leave ourselves in a form of betrayal. It feels so awesome to claim ourselves back and be true to ourselves once again.
Marijuana is far from a soft drug, its highly dangerous, I have heard of people where I live who ended up in a hospital who treat those with schizophrenia, bipolar, and other mental health and psychological conditions – after hardly any use at all.
I can remember countless times when I have overridden what I have felt, and said yes to something when I meant no, and vice versa in order to please another or to ‘keep the peace’. I realise now how dmamging this is though. If we are not even prepared to be truthful to ourselves, how on earth can we be truthful with another if we are always sending out mixed messages. It supports no one and generally ends up in complications and confusion on both sides.
Sandra, that’s a very good point you make and how often do we consider that when we lie to ourselves we are setting up distrust and lack of truth with another which is then cementing this in society. Do we even consider how the knock on effect of not living truthfully withourselves impacts on all others as ripple effects are always felt even if not always seen.
Learning to be self-loving ‘has made the difference’. It seems to me that making the choice to have a relationship with ourselves that is loving is a vital step in our ‘recovery’ and return to who we are. Like you Mary-Lou, this is something I need to practice every day but it is well worth the effort.
Why do we complicate things so much, even down to what we feel, when everything is very very simple?
‘listening to the Divine wisdom of my heart that was there all along, just waiting for me to re-connect to it’. We are given everything we need to live full and joyful lives.
I don’t know anyone who didn’t make the choice to – in one way or another – stop listening to their clairsentience. Isn’t this incredible? We all crave love, yet we choose the polar opposite for ourselves. True love comes from a true, real and honest relationship with our body first. There’s nothing more beautiful than the flow of fiery love through our body. Our body deserves it, we deserve it, the world around us deserve it. No one makes the choices for us. I appreciate myself for making different choices over time to (slowly) come back to the love that I am. In which I’ve learnt that allowing myself to make not loving choices (to not be perfect) and accept and learn from them has supported me a lot!
This is a wonderful account, Mary-Lou. How different would the world be if we raised children to honour their feelings and express them in full?
‘I knew when I walked into a room if there was jealousy towards me, or if someone did not like me. (This included schoolteachers).’ We all know this so well, we can always sense when someone doesn’t like us, is jealous or has an issue with us for some reason or other. It’s then what we do with this that matters and not what the other is reacting to. We have a choice, to calibrate, go into self doubt or simply accept that that is there issue and not in any way yours to take on. I find this immensely challenging however, the more I deepen the love I have for myself and appreciate who I am the more others reactions become water off a ducks back.
Mary-Lou, I can relate to this; ‘The feeling I now have and live within my body just does not compare to living with the anxiousness that comes with living life so that it looks like the picture or ideal I had in my head about how it should be.’ I used to live to a picture, I was practicing yoga, being into the hippy lifestyle, eating healthy foods and growing vegetables, thinking this was it, but actually I had very low self esteem and was anxious much of the time, I now know that my true qualities are gentleness, tenderness, stillness and beauty and these qualities feel very true and I do not have the lack of self worth and anxiousness that i used to, this is not the picture that I had of how life is meant to be but this way of being feels very true and very lovely.
Clairsentience brings a flow to life when we listen to it.
Imagine how we could be living if each and every person were encouraged to deepen their connection to their innate knowing rather than forsake it for external ambitions and the subsequent self abuse. I know that the more I honour my inner messenger, the easier it has become to relinquish the habits that hurt my body and dampened down my veracity for life. Befriending my clairsentience has been the most fundamentally life changing decision of my life, opening my heart to the world again with astounding results.
Rowena this is something that we should really pay more attention to and give a real focus towards. Like you I’ve found the same, its that deepening of connection to my innate knowing that is supporting me in every aspect of my life. I searched for answers only to discover they were already all inside me, all the time. Honouring those as you say is what changed everything, so what if that was our societal norm?
As children we are rarely supported to honour our ‘inner-knowing’ as our parents and their parents before them were also not supported. Now we know that our ‘inner-knowing’, our clairsentience is true it our responsibility to support wherever possible the honouring of the clairsentience of the children today.
We deny what we feel in order to fit in and be liked and then we suffer the consequences. We also ask others to override what they feel in order to get what we want. And If someone says no? We get angry and hurt and wonder why they are not playing ball the way we have. It’s an emporor’s new clothes moment. When we choose what is true for us we express true love and give others an opportunity to choose the same.
Leanne, great observation, not only do we choose to not to feel and act on truth within our own bodies, we also manipulate others to get what we want. And as you beautifully say ‘When we choose what is true for us we express true love and give others an opportunity to choose the same’.
‘We also ask others to override what they feel in order to get what we want. And If someone says no? We get angry and hurt and wonder why they are not playing ball the way we have.’ – Leonne, this is shockingly true – put like that the utter ridiculousness becomes very apparent.
Thanks for writing this article, it really inspires me to surrender more and more so my clairsentience feels a natural part of me once again and I don’t have to doubt myself and what I feel through lake of self-worth and putting others above me.
It would feel so lovely to live in a way where I fully trusted what I felt within, because I know that when I do trust what I feel there is an absolute knowing and I am left with no regrets.
When we live in disconnection with our body but insted in connection with our mind, life will show that is a failure in many ways. In your case mary-Lou, you for instance broke your bones which must have had an impact on your further life, For me I can remember me loosing my trust in other people which continued for a long time even up to in my adult life. It made me to live in distrust with the people in my life, always being prepared to counter any attack that could come from them but actually what I did was closing myself off to be open with people and with that other people to be open with me.
I love this, confirming the ‘freedom that comes from being dead honest with what I am feeling’ – having lived the web and complication of lies for much of my life, I am inspired every day by the freshness and quality that being honest equals.
Is it not so that we are all born with clairsentience as a natural given gift? Otherwise we won’t know and live it as a child – therefore the question is why most of us are giving it up so easily when we are growing up?
It Is amazing how often we override what we feel and ignore the wisdom from our bodies that is impulsing another wiser way…. our arrogance allowing us to think we can do what we like without consequences. But the wisdom is not guiding us to follow rules and regulations but rather align ourselves with a rhythm and a truth that is infact deeply supportive and even evolutionary to listen to… and a gorgeous return to a knowing and a way we were all born with.
Love reading this revelatory blog – exploring what is felt and how it is simply not followed.. I find what spirals me out is when something is felt, and sometimes this is very exposing or simply something that does not feel right, and I do not proclaim myself in this feeling – acknowledge it – give my-self space (all the space in the world) to feel all the potential attachments to this ‘image’ casted in my mind. It is the rush of what is going on around me that I sometimes I allow in, when because it comes from within I already know how this proclamation needs to come out of me.
Once the lure of distraction is taken all the desires that come with it are sensationalised quickly into a reality where you think it is true. So I love this question and honesty prevails “What is it about the mind that ‘wins out’?”. We all have our pictures and it is usually rooted back to the one thing. The esoteric is the key to uplifting you out of this and honesty brings you back.
The way we live could be funny if it was not so tragic! We have the gift of clairsentience at birth yet we ignore it and then complain about how hard it is to live true to ourselves on earth when all the while we have the very tool that is needed to support us.
Beautifully honest Mary-Lou. We know our true potential and yet we go to great lengths to sabotage it. I am living a much healthier life than the one I lived previously but a lot of the patterns of behaviour are still there. I’m wondering if this is the ultimate sabotage?
“…while I was reading the right books and living in a way that looked like I loved myself by exercising and eating well and doing self help courses, being nice etc., however on a truly deep level, I was not loving myself at all as I was using drugs and giving my power away and not honouring my CLAIRSENTIENCE” – classic Mary-Lou… and yes self-love – is honouring our own ability to clearly feel what we feel.
Reading this blog helped me to see just how much emphasis we place on outer appearances, but how the human body will always show the effects of abusing it with things like drugs and alcohol, despite how much we put on a show that we are super health conscious. I speak from direct experience on this as everyone around me thought I was super healthy and athletic years ago, even though I was abusing myself in similar ways to Mary-Lou.
Your open sharing Mary-Lou reminds me how intimately linked accepting our feeling sense is with truly loving ourselves. For if our body and all of our cells have something important to say, something crucial to tell, but we ignore them to the extent that they have to yell – where is the Love and care in that? and how can we expect in the end to feel well?
I can relate to much of what you are saying Mary-Lou, as from a young age the experience of being ridiculed and the need to fit in, I chose to not hold true to what I was feeling or express how I really felt and living in that way became a large part of my way of life. Re-claiming my sixth sense – clairsentience is still a work in progress for me, it’s an ongoing commitment I am choosing to make by re-learning to trust and honour the wisdom of what I am feeling in my body and by not allowing my mind to over-ride what I simply just know.
We really do feel everything. We really are this powerful. We really are more knowing than we would ever imagine. Then why do we find so many reasons to not accept this? Why do we not allow ourselves to live this consistently? Because we care about the reactions from others and we want to be liked and accepted, but what about caring for ourselves and loving us for us? When we love us for us, when we honor what we truly feel, life is never the same again, we no longer succumb to the system that tells us what we can do or not do, instead we begin to see through these prisons, and we start to live in more freedom and a deeper surrender to life. We become much more connected to life and to people, but we will not be controlled by either.
Re-Connecting to what I know is true for me is the most amazing re-discovery, one that I’m absolutely appreciative to Serge Benhayon, for supporting the understanding of why I might has chosen otherwise and how to lovingly re-claim myself.
Overriding my feelings or sixth sense became a way of living from an early age, so just like you Mary-Lou I always felt the irresponsibility of doing drug but through seeing all my friends doing drugs, it seemed normal therefore okay. So as I now understand and listening more closely to all my senses, so that now I am appreciating my journey towards being fully connected to holy intuitiveness, which will be my sixth sense connected to the universality we all equally come from and as always this will be done to the best of my ability.
Mary-Lou, the distinction you make with the quality of how we are with us is so important, it doesn’t matter how it looks, it’s about how we are with ourselves, how we honour ourselves, how we love ourselves.
When we look at the world today- we have invested in the many distractions as a way to avoid connecting to our deeper truth. When we stay in the busyness we override our innate knowing and this then allows us to not feel everything that we are aware of- some of which is not that comfortable to feel at times.
Spot on Doug, spot on!
Overlooking what we know to be true for ourselves is disregarding our very essence, the truth of who we are. This leads to all sorts of problems and circumstances that could have easily been avoided. I know as I did this myself. Thank God for Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine for inspiring us to live what we already know to be truth.
A beautiful blog Mary-Lou; sharing your experiences and your wisdom is very much appreciated. What you have expressed here is inspirational;
“it is in the Way I Live and the quality I choose in everything I do every day that has supported me to listen to my CLAIRSENTIENCE”.
Thank you for sharing Mary-Lou. When we are willing to be this honest with ourselves we see beneath all our behaviours and the reasons we choose them. Our ability to read ourselves and situations is very natural, and when we use our sensitivity to respond to life and all we feel rather than react the truth is seen. I am sure everyone can relate to the examples you give.
I have always known that I didn’t want to take drugs of any kind, and I only take medicinal drugs if I feel they are really necessary – it is, as you say, a feeling thing, I do not always have a rational reason for making that kind of decision, but my whole body says NO. I’m sure I had the same feelings about cigarettes and alcohol but allowed my mind to override my body until some years later when I stopped both. The more I listen, the more my body tells me.
I relate to having that knowing as a child. And now as an adult that knowing feels quite distant, quite old, like something I’ve had access to in the past and could have again but doesn’t feel as clear to me anymore. I know it’s just as accessible, but now being older and having over-ridden if for so long, there’s a bit of stuff in the way of the clarity that needs to be let go of.
Clairsentience really is a superpower. It cannot be seen, smelled, touched, tasted – it can only be felt. And it is a knowing.
I love your amazing honesty, Mary-Lou. So much of what you share I can relate to…that inner knowing we override for something to feed us the he love that we are not giving ourselves.
Great piece Mary-Lou. For me I override so much as a kid because I wanted to be popular or cool – I had to get that recognition. Amazing how a little self love helps to see through all of that.
So true, Nick. Self-love is the magic wand that dissolves the cloak of recognition and cool.
Another pretty awesome example of how our bodies know such wisdom. Sure we override – but that is just delaying the inevitable. Sure we can ignore our bodies but these examples show that there is so much to be listened too.
It’s crazy the things that we end up doing because we have not honoured our feelings or spoken up. I know this one so well. I ended up in a 9 month relationship recently wrestling with all the issues, all the while knowing that I should have honoured my feeling at the beginning that it is not right for me. I could have saved myself a great deal of time and energy if I had just claimed myself at the beginning. I had to end up disappointing him anyway further down the line. It’s such a learning.
Yes, no matter what the situation when we don’t follow that initial impulse that comes from the body, our knowing, it plays havoc, causes unnecessary stress and concern and usually plays out the way we read it right from the start. It is a waste of our energy as you say.
I appreciate your honesty Rebecca and can relate to what you say. At the start of my last relationship, my body spoke to me powerfully in a dream with foreboding, I also sensed something, but overrode it. Not fully understanding the symbolism of the dream I went ahead carried by the belief I needed to be in a relationship. Five years later, when the relationship ended, I connected back to the dream, what it foresaw was absolutely true.
Somebody asked me something the other day, and I could not really put the answer into words, so I expressed that and added that I just know, it is a deep knowing down to my bones, I just know it. Trying to explain it in this instance was hard, but the knowing was there.
And that strikes me that is how many of us leave our inner-knowing because it can often be harder to explain because it can go against much of what society is set up to know. For example, a child can sense/know that something is not right with the parents, but they say that everything is OK, they then could struggle to express what they know because their parents are saying its not true.
Our inner-knowing is not encouraged anywhere near the way it should be from our youth. It was beautiful to read your return to your inner-knowing, thank you.
That’s a great point Sarah, our inner knowing has not been encouraged near enough from young. We do all know what’s is going on, we are feeling it all the time, yet we learn how to override it, to fit in with the pictures that our family, or society accepts and we all end up living a lie, that is until we start honouring and expressing the truth we know.
“However, what I am now feeling is the true energetic freedom that comes from being dead honest with what I am feeling and making decisions from that place.” I like that ‘being dead honest’ with what we are feeling and making choices from that. It might cause reactions but in the end it is more honouring to be honest from day one than keeping up a picture. Something I am learning too.
I feel very sad when I override what I’m feeling. It is a negation and dismissal of a true feeling which creates a shock waves through the body. The more we dismiss our feelings the more we have to protect ourselves from the aftershock of having done so. However listening to and taking action based on our body’s communications there is a flow that eases the body from its protected place, into harmony.
Sometimes our unloving choices simply doesn’t make any sense to us and can often feel like it is something outside of ourselves running the show pushing us to do things that every particle of our body are screaming out ‘NO’ and feels foreign. So, what is really going on? When we are in this state we are running on pranic energy, a source of energy that thrives on anything that is not love and once we are in it it can feel a bit like a vortex but in truth we all have the power to not choose this form of energy at any time, but instead choose a fiery energy that is divine and all loving. Where we are not affected by outside influences but have a strong connection to ourselves, to love and to a greater level of responsibility.
A very clear and spacious blog Mary-Lou, thank you.
If only we had this knowing confirmed in us from a very early age we would not then lose ourselves and find we are needing to “fit in” in life as many of us have done for many years and indeed many lifetimes.
When will we learn? So often we do not listen to what we know is true and then suffer the consequences only to do this all over again,often, quite soon after the previous debacle. Why do we do this? Could it be as simple as needing to connect more to our bodies and listen to its messages, not the ones coming from our ideals and believes?
That is certainly working for me… and the more I honour and listen to my body the simpler and more purposeful my life is.
I resonate deeply with the list of the things you knew as a child because i knew all those things as well and i am now redeveloping a greater relationship and connection to those knowing’s.
When we truly appreciate who we are in our essence and the value of our expression it then gives us a natural foundation from which to keep honouring, living and expressing what we feel is true – rather than trying to please others or just go with the crowd so to speak. Thanks Mary-Lou for sharing how you came back to being true to who you are.
It is a shocker how many of us override what we are feeling without expressing it at all. I find myself still in this pattern of behaviour – not expressing in full everything I am feeling in the moment. The consequences of this are huge as there is then a backlog of tension to clear that gets left in the body (I also feel it as a tightening around the throat and on the chest) and for many also the reaction to this tension that has to clear too.
The best medicine in the whole world and the key to true joy is to live our inner-most truth, to express the truth no matter what in absolute honour of our deep knowing.
We are so naturally connected with our 6th sense – clairsentience but rarely bring it out into our every day conversation and activity. We have a form of science which would try and make us justify the fact that we feel things with ‘evidence’ but everyone knows we are clairsentient it is that simple – and feelings need not be complicated, they are instant, clear and communicate exactly how to go about it – where as we have complicated things by calling emotions feelings and indulging in what follows.
What a confomatiin reading this blog! Time after time we keep doing the same thing I.e. Ignoring our claisentience and giving out power to the mind. It is a great reminder of our history and also the way out by following our heart and feeling our body. Thank you for sharing.
“Universal laws that we are ALL unavoidably connected to” – I love that. We may not know what they are, but that doesn’t make us exempt from the laws that govern us all. And for us not to be in alignment, we have to keep choosing otherwise and it is such a hard work no matter how familiar we may become.
And actually to resist the Universal laws means we cannot be surprised by the effort and conflict this creates… we are simply going against the flow.
Society tends to write off drug addicts as street scum and praise those who seemingly succeed in the world. The truth is if you are not opening your heart and being loving in your everyday, then you are using vices to keep yourself feeling isolated in your own skin, be it drugs or a so called ‘successful career’.
We will never find what we are constantly looking for outside of ourselves… our path of return is an inward journey.
I like the examples you give of your clairsentience. It is simple, we can feel everything but if we do not make it our way of living we do not trust this feeling anymore and learn to live from our head. And our mind can give us a thousand thoughts and options in any given moment while deep down we simply know.
Awesome blog Mary-Lou, thank you for sharing so openly and inspiring us to reconnect to our Clairsentience. We don’t lose our Clairsentience, it is always there and some of us are more aware of it than others. Some people may deny we even have this ability but it is always there available to us at any time. How amazing is that!
An inspiring account of your story from self abuse to a completely different way of living your daily life. I agree with you in full Mary-Lou that overriding what we know to be true and holding back our expression in order to not upset people or feel our sadness, is a deeply harming thing to do to ourselves.
This is a remarkable story Mary-Lou, and one of the most remarkable things is the realisation that to be truly loving means to honour your deepest feelings. This is a whole other level of love for self than what we generally think it entails… like you say, you could be doing all the ‘right’ things by your body, seemingly loving choices, and yet they denied this essential part of you that IS the love we are.
Ignoring our inner knowing has consequences, but we dismiss this and put it down to bad luck or blame it on something that we think is out of our control, when in fact we have over ridden what we have felt to fit in or be liked as you showed so well Mary-Lou in your incident with the bike.
Ah the fear of not being liked. It sits like an unseen assassin, effecting so much of what we say and what we don’t say and so much of what we do and don’t do.
Mary-Lou your childhood examples of how you simply felt things without question, stirred similar memories in me. We did know didn’t we, as all children do.
And the simplicity of this knowing is really inspiring, something I am touched by now as I return to a relationship with this sixth sense.
Indeed Matilda, it is our relationship with life itself, our intricate and intimate relationship with life.
This is such a great point Mary-Lou –”I have learnt that it is not what I am interested in and reading about and the classes I am attending that bring change, but it is in the Way I Live and the quality I choose in everything I do every day.” Everything comes down to the way we live and the way we live is determined by what we carry in our body. This is why it is so important to heal what is not love within us and this then frees us up to live with truth and love.
It can be easy to override how we feel and there can be no-one who has not done this at times, at whatever level, I feel the main thing is we learn from this and as we live become better able to discern how it is we wish to live.
A beautiful way of expressing what clairsentience is, and how it is inherent in our natures but over ridden and ignored for many reasons, thank you Mary-Lou. It is so easy for us to think that we had no choices as a child, but in your description of your 8 year old’s choice it is easy to feel how you knew you did actually have a choice, it was there to be taken, yet you opted out and took the easy way. One choice like this leads to another until it becomes our way of living. And so we go on disregarding ourselves with harmful consequences. But there is a way back to that inborn sense we all have, and you are also expressing for us that way. It is so simple really, feeling, knowing and trusting our clairsentience gives us a sense of presence and confidence, then we do not have to literally betray ourselves.
So much is shared here. Yep we can tick all the so called boxes re health on a superficial level but what are we truly living deep within, how are we really? Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine are the only ones that have truly (and I mean truly) helped me and many others get to the root and heal age old ill and disregarding patterns, ideals and beliefs .. and believe me I have tried many things before meeting Serge and Universal Medicine to heal all that I knew was not me. This is a great question ‘There were countless situations where, even though I knew deeply that my choices were not what I wanted from a feeling within me and a knowing that came from something much bigger than me, I still continued to ignore, override, dull myself’. Why indeed to we completely override ourselves and ignore what we feel and not just once but continually so? The last thing I wanted to mention for now was how damaging is it when we look for love outside of ourselves instead of connecting to the love within and consistently confirming this for ourselves? You could say that this alone, when saying yes to a boyfriend at 16 who you knew was not right for you but you wanted to be loved, led to the years of drug taking even after the relationship had ended. There is zero judgement here as I have done the same but isn’t it crazy that we find it sooo hard to completely love ourselves and instead easier to be with someone else who is not so loving just so we can feel ‘loved’!
Abuse and harm always come from whenever I am not listening to how my body feels, learning this has supported me so much in that if I feel disturbed I know where I need to return in order to bring stability back into my life, body and mind. This can be in physically stopping all movement for a moment or actively moving in a way with my body where I can feel the quality of my movements. For example having negative, self-bashing thoughts the other day I noticed my shoulders where curled inward. So I opened them up, walked lightly on the balls of my feet and focused on opening my water bottle gently – my mind calmed and the bashing ceased.
This is amazing Leigh, it confirms how the quality of our movements affect the quality of our thoughts.
I love the absoluteness in this blog and how there is absolutely no dispute that we do in fact know and feel everything. It is simply a different sort of knowing than what we are used to. It is not knowing about things from what we have learnt or recalled from the past but from what we feel in the moment. This is what it means to truly live life.
Mary Lou, you have shown that there is something deeper that we need to claim in order to bring in the quality of love we are into our livingness – this quality of loving may not be easy or bring an immediate release of the tension present but it will hold us through to the end where the stillness sits waiting for us – the ‘true settlement’. Thank you.
It is becoming so obvious to me as to the power of our clairsentience but how it is such a natural part of our lives but so few of us are encouraged and supported to stay connected to it as children and as a result it is buried under layers of our life experiences.
How different our lives and the world we live in would be if we had the full support from all those around us to retain and treasure this sixth sense from day one.
What I have learn’t for myself the more I now stop to listen to what my body is saying the more I am connecting to my truth. I am able to support the health of my body and mind, as I make more loving choices for myself. I have more energy, vitality and no longer feeling burnt and exhausted all the time.
I am learning to express and speak up and follow what I feel to be true for me. When we learn to do this everything changes in our life, and life begins to flow and our eyes open to all the magic that is in the natural beauty around us called mother earth. We are only ever asked to express who we truly are and that is love.
This is a great example of how we all feel energy and we hold back or ignore it. What we don’t realise the harm it is causing in the long run when we ignore these feelings.
Love this Mary-Lou. Even before being explicitly told/educated about things which can harm us, e.g. drugs, alcohol and others feeling comparison or jealousy towards us and then manipulating us as a result, we have a feeling from young that there is a difference between what is okay and what feels ‘off’. Does this not show that there’s something else going on, and that beyond our 5 senses we might have a compass for what’s loving, respectful and the truth, and what isn’t?
Where would we be if it wasn’t for presentations and teaching of The Ancient Wisdom presented by Serge Benhayon from Universal Medicine?
For me and I’m sure many others if it wasn’t for the teachings of The Ancient Wisdom at age of 61 I would probably be checked out of life by now as at the age of 50 I only felt I could cope with life if I had a glass of wine or two to take the edge off life at the end of the day. Alcohol was my go to, I deserved a glass of wine or a Gin and Tonic because I got through the day in one piece. Looking back I was so shut down and withdrawn from life, how could I have done this too myself, well I had no idea the life I was leading was so harming looking around me everyone was living the same sort of life style. We were all just getting by thinking this was the life of a middle class upbringing. All I can say is thank my lucky stars I met Serge Benhayon and the teachings of The Ancient Wisdom. Through my own choices while listening to everything that has been presented I have taken back responsibility for me and my life and how I am with me and everyone else. How I am with me and how I take care of me affects everyone else so it is vitally important to me to honour myself in everything I do then I know I am naturally honoring everyone else and to me this is the most complete way to live. Is it possible that if we all lived in this way we would wipe out abuse in the world?
A very real and honest account of our choices as we grow up and go along with things to fit in and not claiming all we feel and choosing to suppress and ignore these feelings and how much we hurt ourselves in the process. It is the absolute beauty of the true love and empowerment offered to us by Serge Benhayon and Universal medicine that shows us what we have been choosing and how we can change this and live honouring all we feel.
There is such a wonderful claiming in your words here, Mary-Lou – “it is in the Way I Live and the quality I choose in everything I do every day that has supported me to listen to my CLAIRSENTIENCE”. I get such a strong sense of the steady consistency of what you are now choosing, which no doubt has inspired you to write this great blog. Thank you for sharing.
“… listening to the Divine wisdom of my inner heart, that was there all along” – such a beautiful expression Mary-Lou. We all felt energy as young ones, but most of us abandoned this inner knowing in order to fit in. Supporting and encouraging very young people to retain this feels an uphill battle in today’s society, especially with the emphasis in education on knowledge, not wisdom. But if we live our way with true quality, presence and gentleness, we can be role models, to reflect that there is a different way
Amazingly honest expose of your choices Mary-Lou, thank you. The ‘why?’ question is an enormous question to pose in relation to why we choose to override our inner knowing when it is so strong within us. It is very inspiring to read how you have chosen to return to, honour and fully appreciate the depth of your inner wisdom, empowered by the teachings of Serge Benhayon that return us to our immense and mulit-dimensional awareness.
Living from pictures is so draining and exhausting.
Absolutely the key to sustaining a way of life lived from our inner knowing is to truly love ourselves. I too have emerged from many years of self abuse in various forms and am working on building a foundation that supports me in every aspect of my life by exploring the many ways that I can treat myself lovingly and exposing where I am still choosing abuse and why that could be.
I agree we are all born with a level of “Clairsentience”, children feel things and often honour what they feel, it is the world of adults around them that teaches them how to over ride it and ignore it…there is something that generally we are not willing to feel as a humanity about how sensitive and aware we actually are to energy and we collude in this denial and rejection. I am returning to honour this sense of knowing and I have children and parent them too honour their feelings also…however everything in society pretty much tells us to do the opposite. However doing so allows us to feel settled and content and live in our bodies like nothing else, and in so doing substances for comfort such as sugar, caffeine, alcohol etc and emotions are not so readily reached for life feels more true, sweet and steady and yes a connection with divinity and a knowing of our lives being more than just about us is felt.
Thank you for your honesty Mary-Lou. Despite the choices you made to go against what you innately knew, your reflections have become a deeper level of confirmation of what you always knew to be true, that you can feel energy, that we are all clairsentient and the joy in living from this knowing once again. Enjoy the clairsentient way.
Thank you Mary-Lou your account makes so much sense of how holding back our expression can lead us down a path which deep down we know is not good for us and those around us – I can relate to everything you have written.
Mary-Lou we definitely feel much more than we can think and “know” by way of knowledge. Not only do we feel what is supportive or not in the choices we are offered, we also feel that there is much, much more to ourselves and life. We know life as it is is simply not “it”.
Mary-Lou there is so much wisdom in your blog, so much to ponder and reflect on from the being nice to be liked (something I mastered in my early years) to the bigger picture of the fact that inside we always know. there are things you’ve shared that reminded me of a kid of things I knew and overrode, lots to get a whole body perspective on.
Gosh I know what you have shared here, especially about drinking, I never liked the taste always drank to fit in and have ‘fun’ but boy oh boy did I get myself into some dangerous situations. I watched a movie recently about a boy who fell asleep on a train and got lost, he got picked up by a lady who was setting him up to be taken to what was felt something sexual and he was about 5 years old, he sensed it even though he didn’t have words and she was being very nice to him and he ran away and escaped. We do know always if something is true or not.
“living in a way that looked like I loved myself”
Brilliant blog Mary-Lou, that is accessible to us all on some level or another.
I too used to justify my areas of abuse, by working on presenting a healthy exterior, but in truth my choice to eat salad instead of chips, or ride a bike instead of take the tube was never a loving or honouring choice taken for myself but more a form of control that upheld a picture of someone I wanted to be.
Me too Lucinda, I would eat ‘healthy foods’, only organic, do 2 hours of yoga each day, ride my bike, all seemingly a self loving way of living but no truth to it because I was just upholding a picture, when underneath I was miserable and depressed and took drugs when ever I fell off the ‘healthy band wagon’.
I know exactly what you mean, Mary-Lou, I always wanted to be liked so I conformed and followed other’s choices rather than stay true to my inner knowing. I used to think it was only little things and they didn’t matter, or tomorrow I’d change. But then the slippery slope went downhill and it was very difficult to get out of situations. I love what you say that when we listen to the Divine wisdom of our hearts that was there all along, we return to our clairsentience and our expression comes from there.
Great point gillrandall – we think we are saying yes to one thing but we are saying yes to so much more than that each time we make a choice.
“….what I am now feeling is the true energetic freedom that comes from being dead honest with what I am feeling and making decisions from that place.” What a beautiful example of how it can be to live life in this way. Everything becomes so simple when we get honest with ourselves and it is only then we begin to understand the true meaning of freedom. Thankyou May-Lou for sharing your experience.
Suppressing my expression actually hurts me more than I have cared to admit and when I turn a blind eye to things, they don’t actually go away. I am learning to say what I feel in the moment rather than leave things to fester.
Thank you so much Mary-Lou what you have shared here about clairsentience allows me to appreciate just how much I actually did learn from my “inner knowing,” even at the young tender age of 5 and how many of my choices throughout my life have been guided by this wisdom. I used to think that I should shut this part of my way of being down when I was constantly told I was being silly or childish but I now see from reading your blog that many of my life choice’s have been lovingly guided by my own knowing and that my clairsentience is a gift of my commitment and the many confirming choices I have made thus far. Awesome thank you.
Thank you for your very beautiful honest blog Mary-Lou. ‘The feeling I now have and live within my body just does not compare to living with the anxiousness that comes with living life so that it looks like the picture or ideal I had in my head about how it should be.’ When we choose a life in which we honour clairsentience and don’t deny it anxiousness is no longer welcome.
Just like you and pretty much everyone we all have the sense and innately know what is true but gradually settle for less and so erode this conscious sense of knowing. For me it was all about fitting in and not being the odd one out – did it work no way at the time kind of but I never felt content within my body until I started listening to what I knew and felt within. And even then I have still chosen to ignore what I have felt just now the consequences are quicker and more extreme reminding me to return to the love that I am.
“I have only been able to come back to living from my knowing because I started to love myself – to really love myself, deeply.” Self-love is the key to unlocking oneself from the prison of the mind to return to the freedom of one’s ‘knowing’.
Mary-Lou, like you many of us are returning to the quality of clairsentience after years of abandonment, very often started in our teenage years. You show powerfully that not listening to our inner-knowing and giving our power away to others, once started can have a devastating impact on our lives that lasts for decades. I’ve re-traced my steps, now live a simpler life and learning to live again from my inner knowing, not my head.
Beautiful Mary-Lou, and very relatable. I’m going through the process of reacquainting myself with my own natural, finely-honed sensitivity and finding it a challenge – I keep wanting to dull it with food (often the major comfort culprit as you say). And by constant doing. But I’m committed to working with reclaiming my clairsentient self to the best of my ability.
Thankyou Mary-Lou. This is a great example of how we are always saying yes to something, whether it be love or self-abuse, there is a ‘yes’ at the core of all our behaviours.
Mary-Lou, I can so relate to what you are sharing, as a child and young woman I had this knowing, I knew not to smoke cigarettes, which boys to not go out with, but I overrode these feelings and did this anyway, to fit in and be liked. It feels lovely nowadays as a woman in my 40’s to be honouring what I am feeling more; to listen to my body when I do not what to do something and to be re-learning, as I did as a young child, to be expressing what I am feeling, this feels natural and true.
So beautiful Rebecca, I can feel the gorgeousness of you and the honouring of you as I read your comment here.
I had often been told in my youth by adults “if I had wanted your opinion, I would have asked”. So, I learned to keep what I felt to myself. The silence has been my armourer for most of my life. Expressing has been, coming back to my natural inner knowing and been life changing.
Learning to feel and trust our clairsentience is the only way out of the mess we are in today and as you say Mary-Lou not trusting and following what is on offer from this sixth sense has consequences.
I love your sharing Mary Lou. It is very honest. To appreciate my clairsentience and act on it is work in progress as well, but It changes my life so that my body is more still.
The truth is there within us whenever we choose to stop and listen to the wisdom of our own body.
Powerful! Exposes how far we go with resistance to that wisdom within.
Thank you Mary-Lou for this honest blog on clairsentience the ability to feel energy. Honouring our feelings I have experienced to be very nurturing to my body so I have made it my normal way of being to the best of my ability.
Nurturing feels like a very powerful word when it comes to honouring our feelings. Theres a deep richness that comes into life every time I honour what I feel.
Same for me Nico, I appreciate the times where I have honoured what I felt and knew to be true. This does feel very nurturing and loving. Our ability to read energy is always present, it is pretty much impossible for us to not be able to read energy.
Sure we do read energy all the time and we clock at any moment what it is we are in, but the point is what is our level of connection with our body and with that with its source, God or the Universe. The more connected we are, the more richness enters our life and we then respond to what we read instead of reacting to it what only leads us further away from who we truly are. But every time we respond, our body again will receive a blessing, as we then confirm where we are from and where we belong and our bodies really love that..
Yes honouring our feelings is key along with appreciating what we feel and ourselves! The more we do this the more we feel. For me it is like slowly opening something up until we clearly get to see the whole picture which is always and has always been there we just have not chosen to see it.
It shows how naturally clairsentient we are for when we are being honest we can describe and explain in absolute detail what we felt, saw, knew and did or didn’t act on. Most of us walk around in constant protection and believe that is the way to be or the way to not be hurt… but from my experience of healing a lot of hurt and protection and honouring my inner knowing over the last years, is that what hurts us most is when we allow what is not us to make choices. For me wanting to be accepted or wanting to fit in and not rock the boat equals dulling down of my clairsientience.
Wanting to fit in, be accepted, be liked and not rock the boat – this was my way and now I realise that it was all because of a perceived idea that conflict would follow if I expressed truth. What a revelation. And still expanding in my expression but have smashed out a lot of those old patterns and feeling an energetic freedom like never before.
Beautifully expressed Mary-Lou. When the body moves in tune with what the heart feels, only then will we have true health.
The world is full of so many factors that seek to take us away from honouring what we know to be true… So full in fact, that it is often the most deeply sensitive, who struggle to deal with the enormous amount that they feel, who resort to drug use and the rest in order to get at least ‘some’ relief from the constant bombardment. Do we truly appreciate that this occurs in our society? No…
And so what you’ve shared here Mary-Lou, is so vitally important, in that it is the return to deeply loving ourselves that is key, that we may build a foundation upon which the plethora of bombardments felt, do not hold sway next to the grandness of the love within which we have reclaimed.
I agree there is so much in this world that tries to tell us the way things should be or are when we feel things differently. Generally as you say people who go to the extremes whether it be drugs, food etc.. are deeply sensitive and feel a lot but do not know how to cope with things when effectively they are being told what they feel isnt or can’t be true.
Exactly, and how often are the feelings another experiences invalidated, dismissed and pushed aside? That we can have a young boy fall and hurt his knee and be told to ‘man up’, or ‘it’s barely a scratch’, being case in point. And we wonder why have a society full of emotional expressions that can get out of control to the point of verbal and physical violence…
We dismiss each others feelings all of the time. And the more suppressed we become about what we are feeling the more it bubbles away inside until we explode and when we explode it is usually about something completely trivial and unrelated it makes no sense to those around us. And effectively we are then taking it out on others and blaming them which can lead from something small to quite extreme forms of abuse.
This in itself – the dismissal, negation and burying of what we feel – says to us, that there is actually a vast resource within if we choose to go there. It requires, however, a willingness to develop a relationship with all that we sense, feel and read in life. From my own experience, there are always deeper levels to go to in this.
How deeply do we ache, for example, that humanity is so readily capable of harming each other? Do we have a relationship with dealing with this, and building our own inner resources that we CAN deal with this? Or do we deny and bury… and then dismiss and forget that we actually – every one of us – has the capacity to make, or rather be… a difference in this world.
I fully agree Victoria and love how you confirm that ‘everyone of us – has the capacity, to make, or rather be a difference in this world’. So often we can get focussed on life being about us and forget what we can bring to others. I find the more I appreciate this and myself the deeper I go within myself and the more I then bring to others and everyone I meet without trying to be anything just simply myself.
I found it interesting that some parts of my clairsentience stayed intact throughout my life – whether to abuse my body beyond a certain point (no) or whether to get involved with a woman (surprisingly often it was no). Both of these were based on very clear feelings that were not mental processes.
I always could feel things but I thought everybody did as people sometimes talked about things ‘feeling’ oppressive but it was never emphasised or considered important. I do not remember feeling what you describe in that detail.
Thank you for such open and honest sharing of how your life went because you ignored your clairsentience, Mary Lou. Each person’s pictures of how life should be are different and so are the ways used to cope with these pressures and expectations we put on ourselves. The results of our choices and behaviours then show up in so many and varied ways, yet the similarity of feeling so out of sorts was the same for me until I chose to tune back in to my clairsentience as well. It’s awesome to discover it never left us and was just waiting patiently for us to, as a common saying says, ‘wake up to ourselves’.
Waking up and being with ourselves is so so yummy. Now I really question how I could have been so asleep. I also understand it and celebrate my love affair with me.
I can relate to so much you have shared here Mary-Lou – the knowing and then the overriding to try and fit in and feel loved. And of course love can never really come this way because there was no love there for myself – in the knowing that I was dishonouring myself. There has been a steady unraveling of this over the past few years and there is always deeper to go, more of me to honour, more of me backing myself to the hilt in that and ultimately in saying no to anything that is less than love.
Yes Katerina, self appreciation is difficult without self honouring.
Mary-Lou, what an honest post on growing up going against yourself/feelings; i can relate to so many of the examples. It shows the pattern that’s deeply infected society, communities, workplaces, in that when as small children we are not confirmed in our feelings, and rather instead confirmed the opposite by pretence or lie to create and compound self-doubt — we end up no longer being true to ourselves, feeling as ourselves, that finding our voice in expression/expressing is challenging…and then have partners, marry, raise families in the same way too. (Self) confirmation: the essential nourishment of us all.
Clairsentience is our God-given right and feels so absolute and true as children; we don’t even know the word but we do know what it feels like and how to be from there. And then we trade it in for the deliberations of the mind and its endless excuses and repetitive reasoning. And we lose out big time.
We trade it in for the deliberations of the mind.
We trade the heart for the head. We abandon ourselves. But wow, the return is truly delightful.