Not so long ago I arrived at my work in the A&E Department of the Hospital when the Ward Manager asked who could volunteer to work for the day in the paediatric ward instead of A&E – to lend a hand as they were short of staff. Although normally I don’t like to move to another department because I don’t like to risk my comfort, that day my disposition was so open and full that I agreed. I went there to find that I had to look after a 14-month-old girl who had been physically abused: she was alone in her cot. Continue reading “The Power of Caitlyn’s Song”
Category: – Abuse
Control or Connection: It’s a Choice
The Oxford Dictionary describes Control as “the power to influence or direct people’s behavior or the course of events.” For me this goes very light on addressing and describing Control and almost presents a level of acceptability of its place in the world. Continue reading “Control or Connection: It’s a Choice”
From a False Identity to Discovering the Real Me
Growing up as a young child, up until the age of six I lived in an environment of constant fighting between my parents. I could feel there was much anger and resentment between them. My siblings and I experienced physical violence and constant verbal and emotional abuse. My mother often lashed out verbally or physically in frustration, rage or resentment at us. Continue reading “From a False Identity to Discovering the Real Me”
Haunted by the Desire to not Live: Finding my Way back to My True Self
Recently I reviewed a couple of news stories that were both about suicide. I remember in my own life being haunted by a desire to not live, although I never actually attempted suicide myself. There were friends in school who resorted to self-harm with cutting and another who was recently admitted to hospital as a result of a suicide attempt. In these instances no-one reached out to talk about the way they were feeling and, as I reflect back, I didn’t reach out either. Continue reading “Haunted by the Desire to not Live: Finding my Way back to My True Self”
Life after Family Violence and Abuse: Learning to Love Myself
As a child I grew up living in an environment of family violence and abuse. One of my siblings had an intellectual disability coupled with a complement of disorders that played out in regular psychotic and violent episodes. This was experienced as excessive controlling, manipulative and aggressive behaviour that exacerbated in puberty when physical size and strength intensified the periods of rage. Continue reading “Life after Family Violence and Abuse: Learning to Love Myself”
From Being an Exhausted Mother to Becoming the Woman I Truly Am
I had my first child at the age of twenty and the responsibility of being a parent came as quite a shock to me. I had believed that marriage, children, and being a good mother would be the solution to the emptiness I felt inside. In spite of the relationship difficulties following the birth of my first child, I had another child the year after, but I still felt empty and overwhelmed. I put all the blame for my unhappiness on my husband and I eventually left the marriage to be in a relationship with someone else.
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The Truth about Serge Benhayon 