Imperfect

per·fec·tion / pərˈfekSH(ə)n/  the condition, state, or quality of being free or as free as possible from all flaws or defects.

The idea of being perfect once offered me something finite – a finish, closure, an end. It was something I could strive for and achieve. An expected goal. It was an old familiar feeling and very comfortable, however it was a form of imprisonment.

Freedom from flaws was a hard task, restrictive and near impossible. It was like the Geisha, living a life of controlled gestures, highly skilled and pleasing others.

Striving for perfection is demanding, exhausting and all consuming: driven by an external force of never feeling enough and always keeping it together.

But what if there is no perfection in life and nature – only cycles? Cycles impulse around and around, they are naturally and forevermore expanding and evolving, there is no end to these cycles. There is no stagnation, only change.

Can we measure perfection? Being perfect at a task, by the way we look, by what we do, say or think?

Perhaps we cannot measure perfection because we are forever evolving? This means that there must be change in everything we think, do and express. We are forever expanding and can always go deeper… in our conversations, our movements, in our connection with self.

What if our expression in life will never be perfect and nor should it be; perhaps being perfect is just a concept we have hung onto, thinking that in some way it made us ‘better’ or more lovable.

In the past, believing the idea of perfection pushed me to improve, achieve, to try, and to separate from my natural flow and beauty as a woman. In choosing to try to be perfect it often took me so far away from myself that I felt disconnected from life and my inner feelings.

Being a perfectionist felt like I had no sense of humour; it felt like wearing a suit of armour and having tightly bound feet, restrictive and joyless. It was seemingly protecting me from the hurts of the world, but really it blocked the love within me from expressing outwards.

Perfectionism held me back from being my gorgeous, playful, fluid and powerful self. In many ways trying to be perfect has prevented me from truly connecting with others, never allowing myself to feel unravelled, exposed and free to walk my own path. I have been lost in the illusion that ‘I am only worthy of love if I am perfect’. This simply is not true.

The truth is that I am not perfect and deep within me is a knowing that this is okay… as there is no such thing as perfection.

Imperfection is real, fresh, sexy and alive in its fullness and is ever-changing.

I no longer choose to be a perfectionist. I am unwinding the tightly bound beliefs of this imposition. I am slipping out of the corset and straitjacket of glamour and unhinging the ‘love blocking’ suit of armour. I have removed the facade and taken off the mask. Every day I feel more light and lovely – I am now enjoying appreciating myself without the need to be perfect.

In fact, I feel the true beauty within me that is strong, still, powerful and forever evolving. I now know who I am. I am an extraordinarily beautiful Woman just being myself, and there is no room for perfection in that. I am worthy of the deep love that flows from within me and is expressed out to the world every single day. I celebrate this love and appreciate all that I am without perfection.

Imperfection allows growth and unfoldment, movement and magic in every moment. It has its own Divine order and greater plan, in which I now trust. I am imperfectly perfect.

I am deeply and forevermore inspired by the teachings of Serge Benhayon, Natalie Benhayon, Universal Medicine and The Ageless Wisdom.

By Kathryn Fortuna, Inner Image Consultant

Further reading:
Accepting Your Imperfections and Grandness
Whoops Is One Of My Favourite Words – A Message From the Author

 

1,049 thoughts on “Imperfect

  1. We are forever expanding and can always go deeper, life is never about being perfect, that is simply a trap that can hold us back, ‘ what if there is no perfection in life and nature – only cycles? Cycles impulse around and around, they are naturally and forevermore expanding and evolving, there is no end to these cycles. There is no stagnation, only change.’

  2. Perceiving that imperfection as a reflection to support and enable evolution is liberation as to strive for perfection is to be shackled to an impossible dream.

  3. Perfectionism pushes many of us to try and improve ourselves in the belief we are lacking or not enough, instead of accepting who we are and that there will always be some imperfection, ‘Perfectionism held me back from being my gorgeous, playful, fluid and powerful self.’

  4. What a forever mouse in the wheel thing perfection is. I remember the continued attempts to hit perfection, the changes, the adjustment, the tweaks, a never ending story of never accepting things or myself for how things are. I’m not a fan of using perfection or even imperfection as the words still carry a particular behaviour and so I am more and more seeing myself as a student, a student of life with a never ending appetite for awareness. In this there is no room for any critique only space to learn from one moment to the next and to continually expand the awareness you have come to from one moment to the next and in this appreciate just being rather then forever doing.

  5. Kathryn, you share some points that carry such depth of truth that it is unavoidable such as this One: ‘I have been lost in the illusion that ‘I am only worthy of love if I am perfect’. This simply is not true.’
    Many of us carry around with this or certain ideals based on pure lies — look a like truths or made to portray the falsity over the reality.. All once allowed by us — by not standing within our truth and gaining a certain force power in the other (evil). This is not true intelligence — awareness is.

  6. Yes seeing perfection as an end or completion of some kind is a trap, for perfection is not possible in terms of living as a harmonious human being. Hence we are in the illusion of thinking we are chasing something attainable all to avoid appreciating what is available to us in the present moment…

  7. It’s like in music… If you are locked into perfection, as so many musicians are, there is so much tension there is so much pressure… to the point where, the lead violinist of the Brandenburg Orchestra would repeatedly jab himself with a needle before it came time to do an important solo… Imagine what it’s like to let go of this and to simply have fun playing and singing together… What a contrast

    1. So true, there is a lot of tension when we aim for perfection, it is a constant need to be better and you give a great example how extreme our behaviour can be pushed under this belief of having to be exact to the point.

  8. Perfection does not allow true freedom as you say Kathryn, as it dictates how we have to be to the dot. And how could that be possibly be freedom. So I like how you say you are imperfectly perfect as when we are in our essence that’s who we are and it is never about completing a picture that we have of how we have to be but living and expressing from our inner knowing and quality.

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